Letting You Go

Kabanata 7

Kabanata 7

"Hey you have to loosen up okay? Relax, I got you."

"How the hell would I relax if your doing shit Wen?"

"Ghad, I am not doing shit here. I'm literally helping you out. Wag kang kj okay?"

"I can't believe you."

"Stop rolling your eyes on me. Now do it."

I again rolled my eyes on her. Kung bakit ba kasi sinabi ko pang sya ang bahala kung saan kami pupunta.

"You're being stubborn Roe. It's been 5 months, put yourself back together. I told you to pick a place where we can hang out but you said it's up to me, so we are here and now you keep on rolling your eyes on me for a hundred times the moment we got here. You have to go there and feel your freedom. Dance and shout okay? Enjoy! You don't have to jail yourself for a long time just because you felt guilty. Nasaktan ka din and it's been a while since the last time we saw you smiling and laughing. Come on, let's enjoy the party."

I sighed. Inayos ko ang sarili ko at sumama sa kanya sa dance floor. Nasa party kami ngayon ng kaibigan nyang naging kaibigan ko nadin naman, si Amanda.

Lumapit kami sa kumpol ng mga kaibigan at kaklase ni Wen na nag sasayawan at naghihiyawan sa sobrang saya. I actually don't know what the party is for, kung para ba sa birthday o celebration ng achievements basta nalang akong sumama kay Wen dahil tinatamad akong mag isip kung saan ba kami pupunta.

Kahit na hindi naman ako mahilig sa mga ganitong klase ng party ay nakisabay na lang ako. Its been five months since we last talked to each other and I'm not sure if i'm doing good or not but I am trying to.

The loud sound of music is heating my ears so bad but I don't mind. Nakisabay ako sa pagsasaya ng mga kaibigan ni Wendel na naging kaibigan ko na din hanggang sa mapagod ako at tsaka bumalik sa table namin. May ilan ng nakaupo roon dahil siguro sa pagod na din sa pag sasayaw at kung ano ano pa sa party na ito kaya hindi na ako pinigilan pa ni Wen.

Bumalik lang ako sa aking upuan at uminom ng drink na inilaan para sa akin nang tumabi sa akin si Gwen na isa sa hindi ko pa gaanong kaclose sa kaibigan ni Wen.

"Hindi ka talaga mahilig sa mga ganitong party?" tanong nya nang makaupo sya sa tabi ko.

"Hindi naman sa hindi mahilig, matagal lang nung huli akong pumunta sa ganitong klase ng party kaya ganito," I did't expect that I would be having a conversation with her specially here, right now.

"You're not comfortable with me?"

Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya. Hindi lang naman ako komportable sa kanya dahil pakiramdam ko hindi nya ako gusto.

"Well, why?" she asked.

"I just feel like you don't like me so I didn't bother talking to you anymore," bakas sa kanya ang gulat sa naging sagot ko. She's giving me a face now, I'm right.

"Ayaw ko kasi sa mga attention seeker and fake people you know," sabi nya habang kunyaring tinitingnan ang kuko nyang ubod ng haba. I already sense that she doesn't like me but hey, I am not attention seeker and I am not fake.

"Is that so?" nagpipigil sa iritasyong sagot ko.

"I don't like you because you're playing too much as a victim, you're acting like a fragile glass, an innocent and good one. And I hate that most of my friends really believed your act. They're so kind that they didn't notice you're wearing a mask," she's now mad, sigurado akong narinig siya ng mga katabi namin dito sa table. Napairap ako sa mga sinabi nya. What the hell is she talking about?