Damaged

Twenty Three.

Jordyn

"WELCOME TO THE MIND OF A MANIAC.. Street niggaaa, street nigaaaa" pawpaw Dave rapped.

"AINT GOT NO MIND" He added.

I rolled my eyes.

"Why are you like this?" I asked.

I've been living with Pawpaw Dave since the argument with dad. So much shit was going on, and I just needed to get away. I was starting to regret my decision.

"Eat this, you look like you done lost 10 pounds since that boy hurt you" he said putting a plate in front of me.

"You gone rotel somebody to death" i said.

"Gimme my damn food back" he said reaching for my plate.

"Ok, ok.. I'm sorry" i apologized.

"I'm going to smoke, and no you can't hit my blunt. Always tryna smoke for free. Right plan, wrong pawpaw" he said grabbing his cane.

I laughed as I poured some Doritos on my plate.

"I'll be out there in a few" i said.

He mumbled something as he walked outside.

My phone began ringing and I rolled my eyes seeing it was Ace.

"What?" I said answering.

"Sis I need a big favor" he said.

"What Keyanta?" I asked.

"Come get Maniac" he said.

"Bi- bro i almost called you some" i said.

"And I almost slapped yo' ass through the phone" he replied.

"I'm not fucking with that man period" i said.

"Is that Jordyn?" I heard.

"Nigga get back.. Spitting all on my lip and shit" Ace said.

"Shutup bitch" Maniac said.

"Bae?" I heard.

Maniac must've took the phone from Ace. I just sat there. I didn't know what to say.

"Bae.. It's Toota" he said.

"You a grown ass man calling yourself Toota" Ace said.

"I don't give a fuck on BD. I'm Maniac to y'all niggas and I'm Toota to her" Maniac said.

I smiled.

"Can you come get me? I hate it here with these niggas" Maniac said.

"Where are you?" I asked like the dumbass i am.

"The block" he said.

"I'm coming" i said.

"Bet" he said.

"Aye" he called out, stopping me me from hanging up.

"What?" I asked.

"I love you" he said.

"I'm on my way" i said before hanging up.

-
I pulled up seeing Maniac without a shirt on. He was standing on top of somebody's car singing.

"And this Christmas will beeeee" he sung.

"Get down, you always trying to be seen" i said.

"Jor- oh shit" he said falling off the car.

"He gone feel that shit in the morning" Ace said.

"Fuck that. He gone feel that shit in the car" Trap said.

I helped him up.

"You just popped a perc you straight, shake that shit off my boy" some man said.

"Uh uh" Ace said to the man.

"You popped a what?" I asked Maniac.

"That nigga don't know what he be talking 'bout" Maniac said.

"So you ain't been popping pills?" I asked.

"I had a headache so I took some ibuprofen" he said.

"All I've ever asked was for you to be honest and you still be lying" i said.

"Aight, aight.. I did it" he said.

"Did what?" I asked.

"I relapsed" he admitted.

"I know" i said.

"I fucked up" he said looking down.

"Come on" i said leading him to the car.

Once we got in he looked over at me.

"I'm sorry" he said.

"It's not your fault, you have a problem" i said.

"It's like I was only sober because you wanted me to be sober. When you left it was just easy to fall back into my old ways" he said.

"But even if we aren't together that doesn't mean you can go back to drugs. You can't just be sober for me. You gotta do that shit for yourself and you have a baby on the way" i said.

"How I'm supposed to raise and love a child when I never was given that love? Don't nothing scare me, but this parenting shit got me nervous as hell" he said.

"The fact that you weren't love properly as a kid should give you all the courage you need to do right by your son. Give him the love and care you didn't get" i said.

"What about us?" he asked.

"What about us?" I asked.

"On my daddy I love you to death. I know I ain't tell you about my son, but I just ain't wanna lose you. If you not ready to deal with all that comes with me I don't blame you" he said.

"Why was she at your house?" I asked.

"She came asking for money as always. I cut that shit off though. If she need some from now on I'm going to her spot. She can't come to mine" he said.

"Ok" i said.

"Ok what?" he asked.

"I believe you" i said.

"Stay the night with me" he said.

"You asking or telling me?" I asked.

"Telling" he said.

Oop.

"I gotta stop and get clothes" i said making a U turn.

"Yessir, finna drop dick in you all night" he said rubbing his hands together.

I love it here.