My Story ✔️

54| I Love You, Goodbye

Edited: Altered Ending

(Y/N) goes online, booking a ticket to America. She books a flight in a three days. Everything seems so surreal like this isn't the end, that this is just an illusion or a dream she's going to wake up from. She recalls all the memories she gained with her first friends. Lunch, pickup lines, the dare, the kiss, love, and etc.

She goes to school per usual, ignoring her favourite people in the world. Instead, she hangs out with the outcasts that are sons and daughter of her gang members. Occasionally, (Y/N) would look over at her friends with sad eyes. Whenever they turn around, she would look the other way or pretend she wasn't staring.

A day before she has to leave, she begins to pack. After she's done, she writes a letter to her friends that she would never give to them directly. Maybe even just hide it somewhere for them to find eventually.

Dear friends,

You may be reading this or not, which means I'm long gone. I remembered everything weeks ago. I can't tell you the reason but I wanted to let you know that it hurt me every time I ignored you. Meyu, Aya, I miss you dearly. To the boys, you will be in my heart forever. And last but not least, Hoseok. I've never stopped loving you. It broke my heart when I passed by you. There's nothing more depressing than seeing the guy I fell for being distant from me. You might think that I shouldn't have done that but trust me, there's a very valid reason for this. I wanted to protect you all. I wanted to keep you all safe from who I really am. I'm sorry if I never told you my real name. I'm sorry for everything. Goodbye.

Love, (Y/N)

She looks over her letter with tears streaming down her face. The thought of never seeing them again hurt her even more. Her heart is broken into pieces just thinking about it. She looks at a picture of her and Hoseok, smiling like an idiot. She puts the picture in her suitcase. "I'm going to miss you all," she sets the letter down on her nightstand.

She looks around her room, remembering the time where Jungkook locked himself in her closet. How scared he was when she found him. When she confessed the she fell for Hoseok. When she slept with him. When he thought she was pregnant just to wake him up.

She walks to school late for class. She enters her second class of the day. Hoseok sees her looking more down than arrogant. The aura around her screams sadness. Everyone in the class feels the same way, but still too scared to ask why. Instead of paying attention, (Y/N) takes out her phone to listen to her songs. The teacher has no heart to tell to put away her phone and take out her earbuds. So, the class continues like normal.

The same goes for the third class, (Y/N) leans back in her chair and crosses her legs on her desk. The music is so loud that everyone can tell it's heavy metal. By that time, she turns off the music right when the bell rings. Everyone hurries out of class, having freedom of (Y/N). Just like her old school, everyone scurries out of the classroom like there's something going to kill them. Which is partially true. Though she's not going to kill anybody, she's just putting on an act.

There's one person that stayed behind. Hoseok walks up to (Y/N). He blocks her way making her heart flutter. But, instead, looks at him indifferently. "What?"

He looks in her eyes, searching for something that could tell him that she's okay. He only found a cold gaze. Out of impulse, he cups her face, leaving a kiss on her lips. She wants so badly to kiss back but it would ruin everything she built to protect them. "Are you done yet?"

Hoseok steps back trying to find something in her eyes but all he sees is an emptiness. "Yes, I'm done," he walks away sluggishly.

When she looks at him, her expression doesn't change. But, when he turns the corner, a tear falls down her cheek. She quickly wipes away the tear, looking around to see if there's anybody around. She lets out huge sigh as she goes straight to the roof. Unbeknownst to her, there was one person that saw her cry and that person was Aya.