Memories // Z.Herron

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I walk in to see Zach playing the guitar and singing. I always loved it when he sang, especially when it was to me.

"H-hi," i say hesitantly

"Oh, hi. I didn't hear you come in" he said softly

"Ok quick question, how did jack now i was me?" i asked confused

"Well, i told him you would probably be in the corner of the room because you are a very emotional person and you don't like people seeing you cry, so being in the corner would stop people being able to see you"

I was shocked that he remembered that, especially after three years apart.

"Y-you remember that?"

"Of course i did and also i still have pictures of you and i together so i showed him one"

"Oh, makes sense. But why do you still have pictures?"

"Because there was a stage in my life, just after you left, that i had really bad depression because i was being bullied and because you left and the bullying got really bad so i had to move schools and i started writing my own music as a release for all my emotions and the photos of you made me happy just like you made me happy when we were together and even before that"

When he said this i couldn't believe what i was hearing. He was depressed because I left, ME of all people ME, the girl he cheated on and ME of all people made him happy? If i really made him happy then why did he cheat on me? i also couldn't think of a reason as to why he was bullied, him of all the people in the school, he was the nice musical sporty one that took his skateboard everywhere and everyone was friends with.

"W-why were you bullied and by who?" i asked concerned and confused

"I-i was bullied because after you broke up with me i couldn't believe what i had done and i was so mad and angry and upset with myself so i just started shouting at Brittany... Was that her name? Any way not important and then she just asked if we were now a couple and that just made me even angrier so i started shouting more and then she turned everyone in the whole school against me" he said tears started to form in his eyes

"I-i can tell this is hard for you to talk about so if you don't want to tell me more than you don't have to," i said as i sat down next to him, trying to comfort him

"No it's ok, i haven't told anyone apart from my family this much about it but i definitely feel like you were the right person to tell and i feel as though i needed to tell you"

"O-ok, well since we are on this topic, i was depressed after i left because i missed you and now that i look back on our relationship, i realise that what i had with you was love maybe not from your perspective but from mine it was and the fact that you cheated on me led to self-esteem issues and depression. I was constantly in my room crying trying to work out what i did to make you do it or what i didn't do enough of o-"

"It wasn't you, it was me. I was a stupid fifteen-year-old, i don't even know why i did it but i think i did it because i thought it would make me cool or something and i-i am truly and deeply sorry" he said not taking his eyes off me.

At this point, we both had tears threatening to spill out of our eyes and we were closer to each other than we had been in three years.

We sat next to each other for a few minutes before Zach started balling his eyes out, tears streaming down his adorable rosy cheeks. Because Zach was crying that made me cry, so we were both sitting in a random room in big top luna park balling our eyes out on a day that we were supposed to be having fun.

"o-ok w-well I was-s think-king and m-maybe we could-d try b-being friends a-again," I said through loud sobs.

"r-really?" Zach said, his tears and breathing starting to slow down.

"y-yeah, the truth is you're an amazing guy and you fucked up one time when you were fifteen, that was three years ago and I'm sure you have matured since then. You obviously had a hard time afterwards just like me and you are obviously sorry, so I have decided to give you a second chance" I say as a rub his back to comfort him

Zach just looked at me, smiled and then gave me a hug before getting up and going into the bathroom across the hall, probably to wash his face. I walked back into the main room and found Sophie, she was flirting with daniel.

"I've sorted everything out with Zach," i said to Sophie

"Ok.. what did you do?"

"Well we talked and cried and then decided to be friends again"

"Oh so you're the chick that Zach is always talking about," Daniel said with a sheepish grin

"What do you mean?" i asked confused

"Well, he said that he had this one girlfriend and he always talks about how much he misses her and how amazing and beautiful she is"

"He talks about me even though we dated three years ago and he cheated on me?"

"Yeah.. all the time, pretty much 24/7 and he will have the sudden outbursts where he starts crying hysterically because he can't believe he fucked up so bad," Daniel said obviously not thinking about what he was saying

"O-oh ok, well I'm going to go over into the corner and I'll meet you when it's over," i said to Sophie walking away slowly