Pristine Darkness

Chapter 87

The awkwardness continues as Luo Lang joins Bo Jinyan and crew for a meal, and Luo Lang realises that he never had a chance with Jian Yao. Meanwhile, Fang Qing is given bad news from Beijing . . .

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Translator: Clue

Editor/ Proofreader: Anks

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This was a restaurant known on the streets of Xun City for its good flavours. The five people sat around the table, Jian Yan and Bo Jinyan sat on one side, Fang Qing and Luo Lang sat on another. An Yan, as a pretty burly guy, naturally sat on the side facing the aisle.

Jian Yao ordered, while Fang Qing and Luo Lang chatted for a bit; however, Bo Jinyan and An Yan still remained silent.

At that moment, Jian Yao asked in a low tone, "Other than fish, let's also eat some potato and sweet potato leaves, alright?"

"Perfect," Bo Jinyan slightly nodded.

"Sister-In-Law, my chicken leg," An Yan said.

"I know," Jian Yao smiled.

While they were talking, Luo Lang's gaze would inadvertently fall on them. Almost as if he was a little agitated, yet also a little disaffected.

At that moment, Fang Qing's cellphone rang; he felt around for his phone to take a look - it was a number from Beijing.

"I'm going to take a call," he stood up, yet he gave Luo Lang's shoulder a pat, tightening his grip to give a little pinch.

Luo Lang felt it, yet acted as if he felt nothing, quietly sitting there, not moving at all.

Jian Yao already finished ordering, and the entire table instantly quieted down.

Luo Lang took out a lighter from his pocket, and smilingly asked, "Do you guys mind if I smoke?" He knew Jian Yao wouldn't mind, An Yan had a face full of indifference.

"I don't mind," Bo Jinyan said lightly.

Luo Lang lowered his head and lit a cigarette, slowly smoking. The two people across the table from him, their hands were still tightly held together under the table, he saw it. In that split second, Luo Lang suddenly felt like a wretched rat, he laughed self-mockingly.

Thinking in detail about his feelings for Jian Yao all these years, was it love? Was it infatuation? Was it guilt? Or was it just a realization of his feeling of 'better than nothing'? Even he could not clearly determine this. When he was young, he actually saw Jian Yao many times. But she did not know of his existence. Until later on, after he returned to China following the completion of his studies in the U.S., he made up his mind, to meet her. His life that was originally dry and drab, suddenly seemed like it had an added spot of brightness, giving him a type of enthusiasm for life.

Those women, those women that he used to mask his own confusion, so that Jian Yao wouldn't reject him becoming closer with her. They couldn't even compare to one of Jian Yao's fingers. He could clearly remember that case from last year, when Jian Yao lay in his arms seriously hurt and unconscious, he could feel his heart deeply affected and hurt. In that instance, he wanted to destroy the whole world for her. Just like that, these emotions were willful yet alive. Afterwards, he and Fang Qing constantly took care of Jian Yao, his life was no longer the same. What kind of a feeling was that?

He had entrusted himself to her.

A sense of trust that he had never had. Life seemed to have an added feeling of gentle yet wonderful responsibility. He sensed the existence of that feeling so very vividly.