My best friends sister

Miscarriage

B POV
It's December 20th four days before Christmas and the day Jughead and I lost our baby boy

Two years before Ally was born Jughead and I were pregnant no one knew it wasn't even noticeable but I was pregnant

With our baby boy Jackson on this day 6 years ago I had a miscarriage I was 4 months along it broke me it really did

Nobody knows about Jackson except Jug and I and dad we didn't tell anyone else cause it was heartbreaking

But I was so happy for him and Jug was too Jackson could haven been five but it was his time to go

When I found out I miscarried I cried and cried and so did Jug

*flashback*

"Are you ready to go see our baby boy", Juggie says

More than ready, I say I really was I felt as if something were dripping but I let it go we were waiting in the waiting room

"ELIZABETH JONES" the nurse yells and Jug and I go over to her

So we're doing a ultrasound today the doctor should be here shortly, she says and smiles I smile back

"Hi Betty Hi Jughead nice to see you again", Doctor Lee says

Hey, I say and Jughead says hi

"Ok so we're doing a normal ultrasound", she says

Ok sounds good, she presses it against my stomach

"Hmm he seems a little shy today I think he doesn't want to be seen", Doctor Lee says I get a little worried it nothing Jug holds my hand and rubs my shoulder

"Let's check for a heartbeat", Doctor Lee says I get worried really worried

She does her thing and there isn't anything coming through tears are in my eyes she checks over and over but nothing

"I'm sorry Betty but there isn't a heart beat or any sign of him I'm afraid you've had a miscarriage", she says and smiles sadly tears start to come out of my eyes

Thank you doctor, I say

"Take your time Betty", she says and walks out

Juggie he's gone our baby, I say while crying he hugs me I get off the bed and he walks me out

We get to the car

"Baby look at me it's not your fault ok you did nothing wrong maybe Jackson wasn't ready for us maybe god said not this one but he's in god's hands now ok he's watching over us baby", Jug says while hugging me tears falling his eyes

I couldn't protect him Juggie he's gone our baby he's gone, I say

"Come here baby let's go home" he says they car ride home was miserable we go to dads

We walk inside and he greets us immediately I almost fall to the ground but he catches me

"Hey,hey,hey what's wrong", he says holding me in his arms

"Um Betty had a miscarriage", Juggie chokes out

"I'm sorry", Dad says

I couldn't protect him I did everything I could but I still couldn't now he's gone and it's all my fault, I sob into his chest

"Hey it's not your fault maybe it wasn't the right time but he's looming over you he's watching his amazing parents and his siblings and all his family", dad says while hugging me I continue to cry