what happens if I can't

Jack

I was sat in a bar getting drunk on my own yet again.

By this point I was way to wasted to control my action so I phoned Jack.
It went to voicemail it was 3 in the morning.

My voice mail.

' hi Jack I was probably the last Pearson you thought would phone you but I guess I just wanted to talk to you. So I just wanted to say emm. Fuck Tanisha becauce she is a hoe and I know you still think about the times we had and me becauce I still think about you evry day. Jack I still love you and I know we weren't working but. We could have if we tried. I know you probably hate me and I also wanted to wish you a happy 25th birthday. If you need me Jack or change your mind I'm here bye. '

What had I done. I still loved him.