Without You

"No! Please stay with me!" I was yelling while tears were streaming down my cheeks. "I love you Marcus. You are and will always be the best brother I could ever wish for, thank you for everything. Bye..." My twin whispered and and then he closed his eyes forever.
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Now it's already 1 month since happened that horrible car accident where my brother Martinus died. All the newspapers and the whole internet are about that I stopped with making of music and with singing. I stopped 'cause we were "Marcus & Martinus", we were in this together, right? It can't be just me, without Martinus it will never be the same but to be honest, I don't really care about my career anymore. The most is hurting me the fact that my brother,my best friend,my twin,my other half,just my everything is not here with me anymore. I just hope he is at the better place now.
"I love you Tinus" I whispered while looking at the stars on the sky trough my window with tears streaming down my cheeks. It was already late in the night but I didn't care. I was deeply in my thoughts when suddenly the door bell rang.
"I am coming!" I yelled and sighted.
"Ugh,why now?!" I whispered to myself and went to open the door.
  I opened the door and there was standing a girl with long brown hair and green eyes. We were staring at each other for a while and then she finally spoke up.
"Um...Hello, my name is Y/n and I am from Germany. My parents died 1 year ago so I lived in Germany with my grandma but now she is really sick so I will live here in Trofors now but I came here yesterday and I can't even speak Norwegian...and I just went for a walk but yeah,I got lost here. And I just wanted to ask if you don't know where is the nearest bus stop here" she said.
"Oh, i am so sorry for you and the nearest bus stop is far away from here and it's midnight...I can't let you go there, it's dangerous. Come in,it's freezing outside" I said and smiled at her and she smiled at me back.
"No no,it's okay. I don't wanna bother you" she said.
"No no,you don't bother me and I am home alone now and by the way my name is Marcus but you can call me Mac. And now come in please, I don't bite" I told her and we both laughed.
"Nice to meet you Mac" she said.
"Nice to meet you too cutie" I said and she blushed.
Then we went inside together. We took off our shoes and sat on the sofa. We talked a lot and I've told her my story and also about that with Martinus. I cried a lot while telling her the story about how Martinus died. I thought she will laugh at me when I would cry, you know...'cause I am boy and boys don't often cry...but hell no, she always hugged me,kissed my forehead,stroked my head,played with my hair to calm me down...she was so nice to me. She actually understood me. We talked a lot more and got to know each other better. We also laughed a lot. Wow, I wasn't so happy like this for a long time!
"It's really nice to spend time with you Mac" she said and smiled.
"With you too Y/n" I said and smiled back.
We looked deeply into each other's eyes and our faces were coming closer and closer until there was no space left between them. Then there was that magical moment and we kissed. This was my first kiss and it felt so special...it was so much love and passion in it. And then we kissed again,again and again...
"I love you Y/n" I said.
"I love you too Mac" she responded. Then we kissed again...
"Would you please make me happy again and be my lovely girlfriend?" I asked her with hope.
"Yes,yes and yes!!!" She said happily and hugged me,and I of course hugged her back. She put her hands around my neck, I put my hands around her waist and then we shared one more beautiful kiss...
And this was my new start. Life has its own ups and downs, days that will never leave our minds,hellos and goodbyes, broken hearts and insane thoughts...it was always like that. But life can be also good, there are also good days. We can dance,we can sing,we can laugh, we can do whatever we want. You just need to be happy from little things,be kind to each other and enjoy every single  moment. If something or someone will let you down then you must get up and find your own happiness again, just like I did. It's not easy but you must be strong and do it for yourself because no one else will do it for you. Be happy,strong and believe in your dreams 'cause soon the will come true. And be nice to everyone 'cause you don't know what are they going through. You live only once so live as good as you can.
I love you!// Lucy <3
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