INSIDE'S BEAUTY

Abdullah's past part 2

Abdullah's POV:
It's been 2 months. I haven't seen her will think about it later and now i am just waiting for that day when baba will tell me why dadi was apologizing to him dadi isn't being good now a days

'Baba why dadi isn't eating with us now a days'
'Abdullah she is not feeling well'
'Ayaz just tell him now otherwise it will be too late'ammi said
'What is it Ammi tell me please'
'Beta Abdullah your dadi has only 1 month 3 days to live'
I can feel my heart beat being fastened by hearing that i wasn't going to believe that but the way the tears started coming from baba's eyes i know that this all is true i want to say something want to talk about it but words aren't coming out from my mouth i can see baba is trying to stop crying but he can't he don't want to show his weak side to me i stood up from chair and go towards my room i can hear Ammi trying to comfort baba i wanted to go to dadi's room but i don't have that much stamina for stopping my tears coming out from my eyes as soon as i entered in my room my tears started coming out from my eyes to be honest i wanted someone's shoulder to cry on but i don't like to cry infront of someone then i just fell asleep while wiping my tears off

'Dadi can i come in'
'*cough*Abdullah is that you'
'yes dadi'
'come in Abdullah'
'Dadi why did you hide that from me'
'huh beta so they tell you everything'
'No dadi not everything but that you don't have more time to live'
'Abdullah i love you so much just keep that in mind'
'I know dadi i love you too and i don't need to keep that in mind while its already in my heart'
*weak laugh* 'Abdullah can i ask you a favor'
'Yes dadi Ofcourse i can do anything for you'
'Beta Abdullah please don't ever even try to hate me please Abdullah i am ordering you and pleading to you at the same time its my last wish to you'with that tears started coming out from her eyes my vision also started getting blurry
'Dadi please why would i hate you,you know you're one of my favorite person in this world'
'I deserve hate especially your dad's and yours'she said in between her sobs i wanted to talked about it more but i can't see her crying so bad 'dadi you don't deserve hate we are humans and we all make mistakes we all do sin it doesn't mean you deserve hate and you can't ask for forgiveness' with these i hug her tightly and ask her to lighten her heart up and to tell me everything and ask for my forgiveness so i can forgive her i can tell her she isn't that bad but instead she fell asleep in my arms i laid her down on her bed and got up to go towards my room so i can change my shirt which get wet from my dadi's tears i was upset at my dad and mama that why they doesn't told me earlier about this

I changed my shirt and go towards Ammi's room i knocked and she tell me to come in i sit at the bed near Ammi
'Ammi can you tell me more about dadi's illness'
'Beta yes but promise me you will not tell your baba about our conversation nor you will get mad at him'
'Huh okay Ammi i will not'
'Abdullah your dadi is ill from 2 years ago she didn't tell us about her illness but than one day since she started living with us we get to know about her illness but then it was too late to send her somewhere for surgery actually she have blood cancer and after 15 days a nurse will start living with her so she can completely take care of her till her last days and the main thing is that she did a mistake in past so she think that this is what she deserves that's why she didn't consult a doctor or go for her sugery'
'Ammi is that fault is what she was apologetic towards baba'
'Yes beta'
Without even replying her i got up and get out from her room i call my friends to accompany me they came after an hour and i go outside with them so that i didn't get time to cry actually i don't like crying i don't wanna cry...

Haya's POV:
'Assalam u Alaikum'i said while sitting on my chair at the dining table for dinner 'Walaikum Assalam' both my parents replied one after one 'haya how's your studies'my dad asked 'its good dad' i replied 'when are you gonna ask her'my mum whisper to dad but i can hear it easily 'so haya we wanna ask you something'mama said
'Yes mama'
'Haya we want to send you to hostel and you have choices'
'Huh' so now i will not even have my so called parents
'Haya! You're not gonna deny our order right?
'Umm mama can i have some time'
'Yes haya Ofcourse we will give you SOME time'
'Uh thanks'i got confused on her sudden changed behaviour
'So haya you have 3 choices wanna hear'
'yes'
'First you can go to any hostel in the whole Pakistan,Second you can go to a hostel in Turkey and thirdly you can go to a hostel in America' i listen to her quietly but then 'what if i don't wanna go anywhere and stay with you guys' i just said this just in case actually don't know why i ask that 'WHAT' she almost choked on her food 'hania you okay' dad interrupted 'haya you never talk back to us but what's gotten in you now' is dad is changed too or is it me who just have a  talk more than minutes to them after years that's why they are looking changed to me 'jee dad' i said simply
'Haya you have only 3 choices or otherwise-'mama interrupt him 'just be thankful we are not gonna abandon you' dad then started again 'she is right we want our remaining life to be beautiful and wants to go on holidays i am and was doing this all because of your mother i once liked her so i accepted you too but now that is not the scene'
'You can reject me back then'
'What now you will talk back at me atleast i am better than your dad who abandoned you'
'He didn't abandon me if you didn't accept me back then my ammi will give me back to my real dad'
'see i told you she's a bitch'mama interrupted
'We should just abandoned her why waste our money on such a spoiled brat that is what her mother taught her' she stated
'Please don't talk about my mother like that' i have many interesting answers but that's what my mother taught me 'okay now that you talked back at us you will go where we decided and that place is murre or islamabad that's it' i stood up from my chair and was going to my room but than i stopped when i hear them bickering 'why don't you just abandon her' mama said 'oho my buisness ain't going well for no reason it's because i am giving sadqah and zakat at time and most importantly Allah nam(giving something on God's name) so i don't have to go here and there i will give her all for her education etc' he ended and tears started coming out from my eyes i don't wanna cry i am not weak i wanted to leave this house this instant but i can't i have nowhere to go and the outsiders aren't even good as my step parents i want to meet my real dad i love to meet him at this state but then again that inner voice of mine echoes in my head 'what if your dad doesn't wanna meet you'

I closed the door of my room tears still coming out from my eyes i just wanted to live a simple life with my mum dad but now they ain't giving a shit to me i am laughing at me right now that i will study on sadqah zakat seriously ha no doubt i deserve that but why does i deserve that all ahhh i never even asked a favor from them but still feel owed to them and now my dream is to find my real dad and once i graduate i will find a job and will post advertise on the front page of every news paper will post more on social media and what the heck am i even thinking seriously i will just pray to Allah and he is the one with me i don't need any other things

Sometimes i really need a phone to divert my attention but i can't ask them and obviously i am not going to ask now i should get some fresh air with that i got out from my room and go to rooftop

Ahhh it's so beautiful i love to see stars sky and this wind is my favorite and what the.. Why is he hair again after 2 months i thought he will never come back again but somehow i like seeing him he looks familiar but why does he smile all the time seeing me am i joke to him i made a disgusted face seeing him smile and he WAVES his hand towards me his friends were also with him but they were not seeing me one of them is using mobile and the other one is talking to someone while the third one is in the car and is sleeping in the back seat amd the one seeing me looks like he plastered his smile on his face and isn't even looking anywhere with that i just got out of his sight and take out a bedsheet which i always keep in a box in here

Now bedsheet is on the floor of the roof top and i am on it laying down i see all the stars feeling the wind wants to refresh my mind but unfortunately my mind isn't a device i like how even in the dark the stars managed to be shiner enough to be noticed by us

Sometimes i feel bad for him that i never even smile back at him wants to know his name wants to befriend with him but than again negativity is all around me and i don't want my negativity to be gone cuz there is no one for me to help me or care for me when i do wrong things or get into something but this negativity somehow helps me staying safe let me check him again and this time i will try to smile on him back if he is still there

                                                  
Not gonna say sorry this time cuz my English is always bad i will try to improve💀

Don't mind my mistakes mind my story😔