she, he, myself - [ poetry book ]

myself #1

I look at the mirror.
I can't recognise that person.
she's just so annoying
and useless.
I can't bring back
what she's destroying.
she keeps pulling me down,
tearing me apart,
throwing me out.
that is not me.
well, I don't wanna be like that.

she keeps telling at me,
telling me "you're not enough".
at the end,
she's right.
at the end,
she says nothing but true things.
she says she will change
but she is me and
I don't know how to be different.