Buckys Pov
After clearing my stomach of everything I had for the past few days, I felt better. Tony took it way to far with putting me into a suit and making me fly. I am never going to let that ever happen to me. How can Tony even handle that? That's horrible.
"You coming? Or you going to stand outside all night. Rain storm is coming." Tony says so casually.
I catch up to him, following him as he walked. This building gave me the bad memories with everything that I did to (y/n). I stopped dead in my tracks, finally remembering everything that I have done to her. Also everything that went down the day we both left to go back to Hydra.
"Tony." I start.
"I understand." Tony says over his shoulder.
"I can't."
"The team is gone. I will keep you safe, don't worry. Bruce and I just want to talk to you. We want to clear all the questions we have. Okay?"
"I guess."
Cautiously I continue to follow Stark, making sure to keep my guard up. I know he just helped me get away from Hydra, still doesn't mean he would kill me. We make it to the elevator, going to the level that Bruce was probably on. The ride was quiet as we went up. For the first time I was scared. The winter soldier was scare because of confrontation.
The doors opened when we made it to the designated level. Bruce was already as the conference table, his knee nervously bouncing. Once his eyes met mine, he stood up.
"Mr. Barnes." The male says.
"Bruce." I cautiously nod to the male.
Tony pats a chair, notifying me to sit down. So I listen, checking corners for anyone wanting to jump out and kill me. "So." Bruce says, finding his seat again.
"Nice to see you again." I say.
"Same to you, I see you grew your hair out again."
"Hydra doesn't uh have barbers."
"Cut the friendliness, how'd you die?" Tony says, changing the whole mood in the room
Bruce nervously looks at me, waiting for my answer. So I take a moment to try to remember what happened that night. "Well I didn't exactly die. Hydra injected me with something that made my heart stop for a certain amount of time. Hydra is evolving, we need to get rid of them quickly."
"So when you just walked up and left, that was because your heart started beating again?" Bruce asks.
"Yes."
"Why is (y/n) the way that she is. How did she changed personalities the night you um.. raped her."
"I myself don't know the full answers. Hydra did more tests than what they did on me. Tony even knows that, the whistle thing. My guess is that when the soldier took charge over her sane self, she snapped. Hydra wanted us to keep our connection. I kidnapped her, starting the soldiers fixation on her. I don't know exactly what they did, but they knew they had to keep our emotional state tied to each other. So when the soldier hurt the sane her, the alter ego of her woke up. None of this makes sense, I can't even grasp any of this myself. All I know is that she is never going to be the same. Hydra did more to her than what I have had done to me."
"What about when you were leaving the party?"
"She said something from my past, knocking me out of my soldier state. I was so confused and unsure on where I was. Seeing this naked and scared girl when I first came to my senses, I knew the soldier did something bad. Very bad. So I ran, I was afraid. Only Hydra wasn't just done with me just yet I guess. Their last life line was my heart stopping to escape the grasp of the Avengers and make the soldier take control again. Only they didn't know part of my humanity was still hanging on. All because this one girl made me feel different."
Bruce tapped his pen against the table as he thought. I put my head down, looking at my hands as silence overcame us. I can't believe I did any of that, how could I even let the soldier do something so bad. Especially to (y/n).
"I think that the connection really started when you raped her. That is when she changed to be the crazy killer now. You finished her final transformation when you raped her. You needed to make her so scared for her to take that final push to fall into insanity. You were just their toy to create the monster." Tony says.
"That makes so much sense." Bruce nods to his friend.
"I just hate myself for letting everything happen to her. If I didn't kidnap her, we wouldn't have this mess." I say.
"You did nothing wrong, the soldier clouded up your mind. There was nothing you could do, only sit back and watch. You did bad things in your past, but so have I. I let the monster get the best of me, but I still keep my head up. One day I will have full control over the monster, I will just have to keep looking forward to that day."
I silently nod as I sit back in my chair. I am so thankful Bruce understands what I am feeling right now. The door behind me opened, taking all three of us off guard.
"Hey Tony we just g-"
The temperature changed in the whole room in a split second.........
