The Love of My Fangirl Life

|One|

-Youna's pov-

/Days before the fan signing event/

"Guess who got chosen for X1's fan signing event. Yasssss, meeee!!!" I squealed like a baby, telling my best friend the good news.

"Abaaaa! mah bijj got lucky!" Elle exclaimed na may kasamang pahampas. "You'll finally see seungyoun face to face. Ang swerte mo, naiinggit ako. Di man lang nabunot yung entries ko kahit andami kong biniling albums."

"Gusto ko sana magkasama tayo bes! Para may support ako sa karupukan ko. Peroooo mygad! Eto na yoooon! I'd finally be able to hold his hand, ang lambot siguro non no? I kinda wonder how it feels. Then I'll tell him how much I love him and he'll respond by saying i love you too", I was smiling ear to ear, just imagining stuff.

"Ay ang delulu? I wonder why I'm even friends with someone as delusional as you." Elle remarked.

"awww" i pouted, "di ko ba nasabi sayo na pakakasalan ko siya balang araw? Syempre ikaw maid of honor ko. "

of course that's never gonna happen, not even in my wildest dream

"Wow! Ganyang level na talaga kahibangan mo para sa kanya? Iba ka din!" at tinawanan lang niya ako.

Wala namang masamang mangarap diba? Dreaming about him makes me a lot happier than I already am. Gosh, Seungyoun. What have you done to me?

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/Fast forward to the fan signing event/

I'm really nervous. I don't know what to say. Baka mautal ako pag nakaharap ko na si Seungyoun. A lot of people came, mostly fansites carrying expensive gifts for the members. Tapos ako eto hawak ang album ko. Nakalimutan kong bumili ng regalo para sa kanya. All I really have to offer is my love for him. Yuck self, ang cringey ha.

After a few minutes, X1 came up the stage waving at the fans excitedly. Wow! Everyone looks so good! Grabe tao ba talaga tong mga to? Magmumukha yatang patatas ang sinumang dumikit sa kanila. My eyes zoomed into Seungyoun. Mama! Ang gwapoooo! I can't take my eyes off him even just for a sec.

The members sat on their respective seats, while the staff organized the queuing. Nagsimula na din yung iba na lumapit sa gilid ng stage as instructed by a staff.

Our numbers were next, the line got shorter and shorter. Sobrang lapit na lang, at ako na yung next na aakyat. My mind rambled. Di ko talaga alam anong gagawin ko. Syempre X1 na to.

It's my turn already. I'm really excited that I could actually hear my heart beating. President Minhee was the first one. Next would be Dohyon, the babiest of all babies. Then my Seungyoun. Oh my god! I think I'm gonna pass out.

Though, I really love Dohyon I just couldn't focus on him knowing that Seungyoun is next. Anak ko, sorry di makafocus sayo si mama. Yung tatay mo kase di ko kinaya. I was fidgeting this time, then the staff told us to move. Hala eto naaaa!

I breathed all the air that I can coz I was too nervous just by looking at Seungyoun who's smiling widely at me. Yang ngiti mong yan, nakakarupok eh. Masyado na yata talaga kitang mahal. I sat at the seat opposite to him. Di ako makatingin sa kanya nang maayos, nahihiya ako.

"Hi!" he greeted me enthusiastically. Sa isang Hi parang matutunaw nako. I looked at him while he wasn't looking at me. Sobrang gwapo, sobrang perfect. Ano kayang gatas iniinom nito? Ang unfair naman ng mundo. He signed my album and answered the questions on my post-its.

"I have something to say.." bigla na lamang akong nagkalakas ng loob magsalita.

"Go ahead" he gave me his brightest smile and held both of my hands.

"uh.. marry me"

My mind went blank that I even had no idea about the words that just came out.

He just looked at me with a shocked expression, his mouth agape. Nanlaki talaga yung mata nyang singkit. Di din siya nakapagsalita. He loosens his grip on my hands that made me snap out from getting lost in his eyes.

wait what did I just tell him? Bat ganyan mukha nya? Youna what the hell??! Nasabi ko ba talaga yon? Lupa kainin mokooo!

Before I could say something again, the staff signaled me to move to another member, and so i did.

A/N: the italicised words are Youna's thoughts btw