𝑫𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝑫𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒚, 𝒈𝒐 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇

honestly i dont know anymore

hi
so i'm gonna rant you don't have to read it but if you have any advice just comment or pm me
𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍𑁍

do you know the feeling when you know you're losing someone?
you start talking to them less, don't mention them in conversations, forget all your inside jokes and soon enough your texts are dryer than my skin.

basically i have a friend (not going to say their name for reasons)
they always say how life sucks and how they are going to kill themselves and they just don't get how that's going to hurt everyone so fucking much. especially me i love them so fucking much and i want them to know that but i just feel like i'm losing them a little more as each day goes by
but the thing is i don't want to lose them
they are literally one of the top reasons i'm still alive and i can't express how much i'm grateful i am for that and them for being my actual fucking lifeline
i just wish they could read this
i always tell them they can talk to me if they're upset
but they don't and that hurts me but this isn't about me so as i was saying
i love them so much and don't want to lose them and i know they think no one cares and it's just a joke but i don't take it as a joke and i know how they feel i go to fucking therapy for what happened to me for god sake
i just want them to open up to me again and be them again
and i don't know how long that's gonna take but i'm going to try stock by them the whole way
and even if i don't i'll still love them

sincerely signed ,
ᔕᗩOIᖇᔕᗴ シ