Jessica's Prov:
There's no way I'm doing this. How could I be so stupid? How could I be so blind? How could I not see what was right in front of me? How did my life turn upside down out of nowhere?
Oh I'll tell you how! Apparently even when you give a guy everything you have, down to moving away from your home town. It is still not enough. Before you just assume things it's not like we were in a long distance relationship and I decided to leave my home town to chase after some guy. We were in high school, were were inseparable, we were in love. Or so I thought we were.
I won't bore you with all the details of our love story, or how it tragically ended. All I will say is I always said I would be with someone no matter what happened, but not if they cheated! As Meat Loaf said, "I will do anything for love, but I won't do that!" So hear I am, pulling into my parents drive way, after not seeing them for years.
I shut the car off and just sat there looking at the home I grew up in. I couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief, I already felt better just seeing the house. Then instantly my anxiety started to kick in, and the fact that I haven't seen my family in person for over two years really hit home. I mean we called, and facetimed each other all the time. But I never made an effort to actually come back down and see them. I was so wrapped up in my future with Tanner, I never truly made the time to come down to see them.
It made me feel horrible. I honestly didn't know what to do. I just sat in my car and looked at the home I grew up in. It was like I was frozen, I wanted to unbuckle, I wanted to walk in and say I'm home like I did a million times before. But the idea of even getting out of the car gave me a mini panic attack. I looked at the home, and considered just backing away and not going in. I mean they knew I was coming back, but now that I was here it seemed like I honestly couldn't face them.
I heard a car pull up behind me. I looked behind me and watched Penelope get out of the car. My heart started to beat a thousand times faster. I haven't seen her since we fought right before I left home and moved away with Tanner. I was truly fucked now, because either way I had to deal with something I truly didn't want to deal with. Before I had a chance to do anything my passenger side door opened and Penelope sat down next to me.
She didn't say anything. She just looked ahead, I honestly didn't know what to do. I expected her to yell at me. I expected her to give me hell for not listening to her. I expected her to truly hate me and to never want to see me again. I didn't expect to to just sit there.
"Penelope...."
"No." She responded as she continued to look ahead. No? No what? She took a deep breath and sighed. She turned to look at for the first time, and I seen that she had tears in here eyes. My heart broke from seeing this and all I wanted to do was pull her in and tell her how sorry I was. "I missed you so much."
I couldn't stop myself. I unbuckled and wrapped my arms around her. She cried into my shoulder and I couldn't help but tear up myself. We just sat there and cried in silence for a moment. I pulled back to look at her.
"Pen..."
"No you don't need to say it. I know, and the best part about having a wife, is that she will truly always be there for you." She explained to me with a small smile. It broke my heart even more. We had been best friends since we were 5 years old. Middle school is when we got engaged and high school we got married. Obviously we aren't legally or truly married. But it meant something to us.
I knew she truly didn't want to talk about this now. But I did have to apologize to her at some point, now was just not the time in her eyes. That's what I love about her, she's always putting me feeling first, just like I do with her.
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Broken and Beautiful
RomanceNever plan out your life, because it will never end up that way! Jessica Johnson never in her life thought she would walk in on the man she loved cheating on her. She had plans on marrying him. She moved to follow his dreams. She left her family beh...