never ending

dos

i shouldn't even be liking him. he's such an asshole to people, but i guess what i like about him is that he treats me different.

i've never met someone as self centered as him, but when comes to me, he's soft. vulnerable even. 

but i guess it's because he knows he will always have my attention.

he's a car guy. always taking care of his old 2000 honda civic, always trying to fix it up. i always compliment him on it, because honestly it is a sexy car that he has fixed up. i love how low it is, how loud it sounds when he drives down my street. 

but due to having an amazing car, more and more girls pay attention to him, honestly to my opinion it's only because of his car and his willingness to pay for food or whatever. they don't take time to actually know him. i wish he knew how much i like him, regardless if he has money or a car.

i met him during the summer of '18, never had i once felt what i felt for him, it has never changed, regardless if i say other wise. 

but i just wish he was mine. for goddamn once.