Someone you loved 🔞 rosekook

Ch. 12 I broke her

you put scars
in my heart
without saying

SORRY..

( thats rosè's fave quote in stay)

PRESENT

Jungkooks Pov

I tried to let myself sleep. I know very well that she's crying. I just wanna ignore everything around me but deep down inside, i want to crash her in my embrace.

I MISS HER SOO MUCH THAT ITS KILLING ME.

I had the best luck in life.😩 I did'nt know she'll sit beside me in this long plane journey. Within those long 30 minutes that she pretended to be asleep on her chair I keep staring her. She's still the only person I would willingly stare for the rest of my life. Her fluffy cheeks that i love to bite, those brows that furrows on simpliest things, those eyes that melts every piece of me whenever she looks straight in my eyes, those lips that i love to kiss. The smiles, that i can no longer see whenever I'm around.

She look pale than usual.

I could see dark circles on her eyes that is visible on her bare face.

She would usually dress up prettily whenever she travels for gigs but this time, she didnt bother to. She's just on a plain black hoody with her black jeans and a black glasses that is place on her side plane table. Her hair that is usually styled up is just on a messy bun which you never see her do whenever she's outside.

I did this to her.
I blame myself for being an idiot on leaving her without explaining everything.

If only I can.. I will..

But I made a promise..

And with that, I need to sacrifice.

For her sake.

I can feel a tear slowly fall in my eyes. I immidiately wipe it out and closed my eyes to sleep even though I cant.

After a few minutes

I felt her moving out passing into me..

I tried not to budge pretending that I'm in deep sleep.

After she passed by I turn to find that she went to the bathroom.

............

Its been 15 minutes but she still didnt went back. I keep on looking at the back where the bathroom is and I saw Lisa knocking on the bathrooms door. I saw her coming out and her face was soo red and her eyes are swollen from crying. It pierce through my heart seeing her broken. I tried my best not to do anything even though Im on the verge of running so I could embrace her tightly.

I couldnt hear what theyre talking about coz its far from the seat i'm at. After a few minutes I saw her walking back towards our seat so I pretended to sleep again.

She sat on her chair and I could feel her staring at me. Before I knew it, I felt her hands caress my hair for a few seconds and I heard her whisper...

Be happy.

Afterall the things I did ...
After breaking your heart ...

Why did you even say that rosé?
You should be mad at me.
You should hate me.
You should forget me.

I wanted to say it out loud but I didnt.

I tried my best not to break down. I slowly turned my back against her so she wont see the tears falling from my eyes.

I love you soo much Rosé that's why I had to let you go.

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