RadioDust One-shots

Relapse(Angst)

Chapter Warnings: self-harm, drug/alcohol use, self-deprivation,abuse,suicidal thoughts.

please know this may be triggering for some readers, please read with caution, the warnings only last for this chapter.

Very Very long chapter(5216 words)

summary(only for this chapter): Angel has been doing well for a while, he has been clean,sober and helping out around the hotel, he was still stuck in the porn studios with Valentino and he made the mistake of trying to leave so he can get fully better and Val didn't like that. soon enough he relapses. Alastor soon finds out what happened when he passes out.

let's get on to the story

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Angel Dust's POV

I was in the studios, nervous. I was about to try to quite the studios but everyone knew Valentino didn't like people trying to leave but i had to leave to get better. i was doing so well, its been almost five months since i have done anything like smoke, do drugs, drink alcohol, self harmed. I feel like im doing well, its all going well, all except for fact that im still stuck here. I nervously walk to Valentino's office knocking gently

"who is it?!" i loud voice calls from inside

"Angel Dust, Val" i call back

"Angel cakes? Come in" he calls i open the door quickly shutting it softly "okay, talk, what do you need Angel Cakes?" he asks pointing to a chair in front of him i quickly sit down,knowing to fast or he yells. 

that's the best i can hope for, but of course hopes are just that, hopes, they are unlikely to become real in my case.

I look up at him taking a silent breath "okay Val, im gonna cut to the chase, i want to quit, i want to get better maybe even be redeemed of this Hell" i say, he just stared for about 30 seconds as if trying to understand what i said before he spoke.

"what was that Angel?" he asked, he knew what i said i know he does but i repeat myself anyways

"i said i wanted to quit Val." i repeat trying to keep up my confident tone

"oh Angel, Angel, Angel, Sweetheart" he starts standing and walking around to me, oh no here it comes, i feel a clawed hand roughly grab my face tilting it up to look at Valentino, my confidance slowly drips away "What was our contract?" he asked me, his voice angry i quickly answer shaking slightly 

"i will be safe if i stay with you and i couldn't leave the studio" i say, i didn't care a few minutes ago and i still don't. I have to leave here "a-and i don't care 'bout our contract Big Vee, im leavin'" i say feeling a sudden sharp pain across my face, he hit me, not the first time but he kept going clawing me up all the while yelling and screaming about how i couldn't leave, calling me terrible things. It's okay, i dont mind

or do you

im not sure,anyways Valentino's abuse carries on for i dont know how long but it hurt to move, to breathe, to think, my head filled with all he said to me.

'stupid slut'

'useless'

'worthless'

'nothing'

'you'll cause everyone else to die'

'whore'

'f***ot'

'disgusting freak'

the just continued, filling my mind, screaming loudly, it hurt. it all hurt until i finally heard