Damaged Love

Past

Coming Early

I am sorry

for the burn

but I have

been raped

and yet you were the

worst sex

I ever had

Rope Falling

as the rope

tightened around my neck

I called you

I am not sure

if I wanted you to

save me

or for you to hurt

but either way

you hung up

and left

so I dropped

and though

the suffocation lasted too long

I am glad my dad didn't

have to cut his dead daughter

off the tree

Names

it used to be

that when my name was used

by the opposite sex

that they were breaking up with me

my name became a trigger

because every time

it meant an end,

an anger,

the start at a fight

but you don't use it that way

it still rises panic,

somethings stagger,

and linger

but  I am

not as afraid as I used to be

Sex

It wouldn't mean

so much

that you don't want to have sex with me

if other guys

hadn't wanted me,

or if it was because

of the way you are,

or that you don't trust me yet

I get all that,

or that you don't even like me

but it isn't me

or even you

and that sucks

Naked

I stand here

before you

naked,

and yet

you still don't see me

You ask if I like you,

I tell you I love you,

you don't want me gone,