through the dark ➳ malik a.u

i'm a complete idiot

I feel awful

I feel super, super awful 

I don't even need to explain why I just feel so guilty for just abandoning this

I'm gonna be honest with you guys and tell you the honest truth and that is that I let my insecurities get the better of me and I was so worried about writing all the time because I honestly hated through the dark at one point like I was so insecure I managed to convince myself that it was complete shit and that I couldn't write and I just felt the overwhelming need to please everyone and try and be better and change my writing style even though it was my actual writing style that you guys started reading in the first place

basically I've been so so so dumb and I just thought leaving it alone would be best but it made me feel worse I miss this story so much now I miss writing it I miss zeorgia I miss niall I even miss fuCKI NG   JESSICAA? ?? 

I handled this completely wrong and I am so so so sorry, I realised after I checked wattpad for the first time in months had had 11 FUCKING THOUSAND notifs like omg u guys really want more and I am so sooo SOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry like honestly oh my god I'm so shitty

But yeah, I will fucking write more. I am writing more. I'm nearly finished chapter 24 right now because fuck yeah I've found my mojo again and I love this fanfic sooooo much and I have so many good things in store

ALSOOOOO I'M GNA BE WRITING STORM AND IGNITE TOO BC I LOVE THOSE IDEAS BT IDK ABOUT EPIDEMIC WE'LL SEE

I'm gonna start ignite because that'll help this feel like more of a /// fresh start /// with writing even though I'm continuing through the dark you feel me??? i need something new aswell???

I LOVE YOU AND IF UR STILL HERE READING THIS I LOVE U HONESTLY I'M SO SORRY FOR BEING A MASSIVE JERK OKAY I LOVE U THANK U IM SORRY IM AN IDIOT <3 :(