Sorrowful Souls

CHAPTER 4

CHAPTER 4

Napag desisyonan ko munang magpaiwan sa sementeryo. I urge my dad to go home first and take some rest same with my aunt.

Nang nasiguro ko na wala ng tao sa paligid ay padaos-dos akong napaupo sa tapat ng lapida ng kapatid ko. Hanggang ngayon ay tila sinasaksak ng milyon-milyong kutsilyo ang puso ko. I canot even fathom the emotions I had earlier when they started rolling the coffin below.

"Avery naman kasi eh! Wala na tuloy akong kakampi dito! Ang bilis naman!"

"Ang bata bata mo pa! Akala ko ba gusto mong maging katulad ng ate Emerald mo na maging batikang actresss? Akala ko ba..."

Iyak ko habang tinitingnan ang pangalan niya.

In loving memomy of,

Avery De Vera

September 15, 1996-March 28, 2020

You will forever be in our hearts

I look up in the sky, like me, it's turning gray as the minute passes by, tila ba nakikiramay sa nararamdaman ko ngayong araw. Nagbabadya ng malakas na ulan.

Like me the sky is sad.

But unlike the sky.. I don't know if there will be a sun that will appear to wipe the sadness in my eyes.

Tumayo ako nagsimulang maglakad. Before I step out of the cemetery, I turned to see the place where we buried my sister for the last time.

The wind gushes as leaves started to fall above me and it must have been my imagination but I saw my sister in a very beautiful dress smiling and waving to me.

I DIDN'T even know if my dad and I or even my dead sister deserve this kind of pain.

Losing someone is one of a shit feeling that we don't even want to ever feel again.

I feel like a shit person kasi hindi ko man alam na mag pinagdadaan ang kapatid ko or kung meron man siya. She was always bubbly in front of me.

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang makaramdam ng tila nababasa ang aking buhok. Tumingala ako sa langit. The rain is starting get strong as if washing the tears flowing in my cheeks.

Tumingin ako sa paligid only to find myself in the middle of the bridge. Everything looks gray to me, even the sirens of the cars have been nothing to me. I don't even care the coldness that has been lingering in my body.

I wipe my wet face as I get to have a clearer view of the river.

I take a deep breath and stare at stagnant river. Letting the noise of the surrounding sips into my mind.

Hindi ko alam kong ilang oras akong nasa ilalim ng ulan pero ang natatandaan ko ay mag gagabi na.

"Miss! Miss!"

Nilingon ko ang boses na narinig ko only see a guy dressed in a black suit with an umbrella in his right hand.

Hindi ko siya pinansin at dineretso ang tingin sa unahan. Sa gilid nang aking mga mata, ay nakikita ko itong papalapit sa akin.

"If I were you, I would stand up and start a new life." Hindi ko padin siya pinapansin not until a hand started blocking my view.

I look at him and was stunned in a second.

The guy was giving me hand. Medyo pagabi na at unti-unting nagsisindihan ang mga light post kaya masasabi kong he have a black hair and sharp jaw but one thing that caught me were his eyes and smile. They were full of sadness like mine.

Maybe that's why I gave him my hand and help me stand up.

He towered me like a 6 footer basketball player. Nasa bandang dibdib niya lang ako ng tumayo ako.

Tahimik lang kaming dalawa nang bitawan niya ang kamay ko. Neither of us wanted to start a conversation not until we heard a little voice coming somewhere.

Palinga-linga ako sa paligid hanggang sa makita ang isang itim na sedan may kalapitan sa lugar kung saan kami nakatayo nitong kaharap ko.

"Kuya! Sebby is now hungry!" Nagkatinginan kami nung lalaking tinatawag na kuya.

"Do you want to come with us?" Even in my state right now, the no.1 rule in the book of universe is never talk to a stranger.

Siguro nakita niya ang pag-aalinlangan sa aking mga mata kaya nilahad niya ang kanyang kamay.

"I am Lazarus Maguire, you are?"

Inabot ko ang malamig kong kamay sa kanya.

"Torah Brielle De Vera."