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Chapter 19

"Only love can heal scars left by love"

-I saw this quote on IG so credit to them and literally I'm gonna always remember that.

Jimin watched as he softly toyed with a grey elephant plush in his hands. It's been a little over a week since the incident and he's been laying in this hospital bed ever since.

"Are you ready for this?" BamBam spoke quietly. Jimin turned toward him and offered a bright smile that covered his eyes, "ready as I'll ever be."

Jimin was really thankful to Bambam, the younger had been by his side through a lot, even now, he's here to see him off to surgery. It wasn't just BamBam, the other members of Got7 would visit him as much as possible so Jimin was never really lonely. They'd even leave him small things like balloons, snacks, and small presents; much like the stuffed elephant in his arms right now. It made him feel warm and happy whenever he held it, although he wasn't sure which member bought it for him.

"Jiminie!"

"Hey chim!"

Yugyeom and Jackson strolled into the hospital room with balloons and flowers in their hands. Jimin broke out into an even wider smile if possible. "It's the big day huh," Jackson grinned back, setting the flowers on the table in the room.

"Yeah..."

"Are you nervous?" Yugyeom asked, BamBam took Jimin's hand and squeezed it comfortingly. "Just a little... From here things are really unsure for my future." Jimin chuckled to himself. He remembered distantly a conversation he had with PDnim when his boss came in to visit him just a few days ago...

"Hey Jimin, how are you feeling?"

The older man came in with a "get well" balloon in his hand, a warm smile on his face.

"Hi Pdnim! I'm feeling fine, thank you for visiting me." Jimin bowed as best he could while lying down. Pdnim just chuckled and took a seat next to the idol.

"Of course i'd visit, you guys are like sons to me." Jimin's smile faltered ever so slightly, but wasn't exactly a frown. The director picked up on it, "Ah, Jimin..." he began.

"Part of the reason why I came to see you today, I wanted to discuss something with you regarding your contract." For a solid ten seconds, Jimin's heart froze. His contract with BigHit? Was he being fired? Is it because of his illness? Is he not allowed back anymore?

"Y-yeah?" He stuttered. Pdnim studied his reaction for a moment before continuing. "I wanted to give you the option to work alone as a solo artist under the company. I understand the conflict between you and the others so I'd like to take you out of that environment if you're uncomfortable. Of course if you decided you needed to leave the company altogether... I understand. I already talked to JYP about arrangements of a possible contract transfer, but I really do hope it doesn't come down to that."

Jimin fell silent as he listened. Leave BTS? Did he really want to do that? He knows he should be angry and hate the guys for what they did to him, he should want to leave in a heartbeat, but now that he's faced with the option... his heart hurts even more. BTS was... BTS was who he is.

BTS has been his life for seven years, the routines, the memories, it's all embedded into his soul at this point. Trying to imagine not being in the group just felt so wrong. It made his heart stuffy and uncomfortable.

'But they're there. The ones that hurt you, the ones that were supposed to be your brothers.' A voice deep in his mind spoke irritably. 'But-'
'But they are his brothers! Seven years together, they've been through conflicts before! They pushed through together!' Before he could reply, a different voice seemed to answer the other.