me to my mom

I am sorry mom

I wish i was different
I wish i didnt hurt her

All along i regret
How worst i acted
But couldnt do anything
Not now nor never

Tears in her eyes
Melted my ice
But still i stood there
With a rock in here

I wish i was different
I wish i didnt hurt her

Every act i played
Every word i slayed
Only made them sad
It was all my bad

My heart always followed
Everything u said
But only the opposite
My actions always read

I wish i was different
I wish i didnt hurt her

It made me irritated
How inhuman i am
U were never to blame
For the anger i flame

All my stupid steps
All my stupid words
I wish i never do
But here i did it again

I wish i was different
I wish i didnt hurt her

Only if u could understand
Without a single proof
All along i was
Was never how i was

May be my moodswings
Or may be my self
May be your deeds
Or may be your babbles

Donno what it was
Donno how i was
How could someone ever be
Such selfless as she was

I wish i was different
I wish i didnt hurt her

Even after all my cruel things
Only the smiled she showed
After all the secret cries
The wet blankets proved

All the pain she had
I felt it too
But yet again i was
As cruel as ever

I wish i was different
I wish i didnt hurt her