What it's like on the Rez

My bundled up anxiety and angry

Family I don't know if I'll call them that sure their nice take me and my siblings to the city and that takes money but I'm still terrified of them,

 what happens if I argue with them will they get angry and smoke or drink?

Plus they smoke like one pack a week my dad stop smoking cause of problems or something 

They had a baby why did they make me take care of her?

Will my father hit me again if he's drunk? 

Question I ask myself to much to worry their nice parents but they drink every Saturday and Sunday and their very Aggressive and when I cut one time they stop and try to talk to me WHY are you trying to talk about feeling when all of my life you told me to walk it off 

I scraped my knee walk it off

My leg is hurting bad walk it off 

I'm being bullied walk it off or fight back I got detention for kicking someone in the balls and got beat up so don't talk about feeling when you didn't try before hand.

 I want to leave the Rez but my grandparents and great grandma Taught me a different life to  learn how to do traditional stuff and I'm one of the few children to learn to hunt , trap, ,skin animals and cook traditional foods and what will I do with that I leave will I be one of the kids to make it out the Rez, 

So I made a choice 

To leave  but to leave I have to pass school so I taught myself some work ahead got all A's like my sister she made it out if she can I will to but I will need help 

So she helped me with work to understand and I skipped a grade I'm close to freshman but STUPID  QUARANTINE 

but yeah i have crippling depression .-.