Broken

Chapter 13: Why Doesn't He Want Me?

Aoba Johsai POV

Oikawa hadn't mentioned Hinata's refusal to join the team in a few days, and they were all bothered by it. For the first week that is all he would constantly talk about, but now he just remained silent and stared at the ginger that was sitting with his friends at the table next to them. What bothered the team more was that Iwaizumi didn't even seem bothered by it, normally if something like this happened he would call him names and tell him to stop staring.

"What's up with you two?" Matsukawa asked after having enough of their weirdness.

"Nothing's up." Iwaizumi said nonchalantly and continued eating.

"Sure." Hanamaki said rolling his eyes and then tapping Oikawa to get his attention, he finally looked away from the ginger blinking a few times before focusing on his friend "Did you convince Hinata to join the team yet?"

"No." Oikawa pouted slightly and started eating, sneaking glances at the table next to them.

"Did he say why he wouldn't join?" Kunimi asked surprising everyone since he was never interested in these kind of things

"He has to watch his sister after school." Iwaizumi offered sending a look towards OIkawa

"That's sad." Kunimi commented and went back to eating.

"How is that sad?" Matsukawa asked, and everyone looked interested in knowing the answer

"From my understanding Karasuno was the first team he had, the one he played with in middle school was just a bunch of misfits he convinced to play a game with him." Kunimi said shrugging, as he went on "Besides he really seemed to love playing it's just sad he isn't anymore."

The team nodded in agreement, and were also left in a bit of shock. To think the little spiker they had so much trouble with hadn't played on a real team before Karasuno, it just showed how hardworking and determined he was. And now he can't play because he has to watch his sister....

"Too bad he can't just bring her to practice with him." Kindaichi muttered, and everyone looked at him "What?" He asked, noticing their shocked stairs.

"Kindaichi you're a genius!" Oikawa leapt up and ran from the room, dragging a very shocked and angry Iwaizumi with him.

"Shittykawa let go of me." Iwaizumi said hitting his friend with his free arm

"Iwa-chan mean!" Oikawa released him, stopping, and clutched his head

"What the hell are you trying to do, Shittykawa?" Iwaizumi crossed his arms

"I was going to go ask coach if Hinata could bring his little sister to practice with him." Oikawa pouted still holding his head

"No you're not." Iwaizumi scolded "We can't have a little kid running around while we're practicing"

"But Iwa-"

"And even if we could that doesn't mean Hinata will join." Iwaizumi said cutting off his protest and continued lecturing him "Didn't you notice that he never said he wanted to play?"

"Of course he wants to play!" Oikawa shot back "Hinata's like me, volleyball is everything to him"

"Fine let me rephrase this. What makes you think he wants to play with us?"

"What do you mean who else would he play with?"

"Just because we have been pushing ourselves into his life doesn't mean he's happy we're there. Didn't you notice how unhappy he was when we showed up this morning, how unhappy he had been every morning."

"But he lets us in and we eat breakfast with him, and then all go to school together after dropping Natsu off." Oikawa said smiling at his friend "Of course he's happy that we're there."

"Oikawa the reason he lets us come in and eat with him and then go to school together isn't because he's happy with it." Iwaizumi said pinching his nose

"Then why does he?" Oikawa's smile started to slip

"Because it makes Natsu happy."

Oikawa POV

I shook my head no, denying what Iwaizumi had said. I knew he was right, about Hinata not wanting us around, and it hurt. It hurt so bad, why did it hurt. I continued shaking my head no, saying that one was wrong. I could feel my tears falling, I didn't want to, but I couldn't hold them back. Iwaizumi hugged me, like he had so many times recently, why had I been crying so much recently? Why is it that when I think of Hinata and all he's gone through my chest aches? Why can't I get his happy smile, the true one that he gives Natsu, the one he wears after spiking a ball, why cant I get it out of my head?

"No it's not true." My voice broke as I cried "H-Hinata wants us around...he...he has to want us around...." I sobbed

"Oikawa, what brought this on you had to know this?" Iwaizumi held me at arm's length looking confused, I shook my head more trying to say it was true, "I'm sorry Oikawa..I'm sorry"

"H-Hinata...Hinata.....he has to want...he has to want us...." I cried more, my voice barely coming out between my sobs. "Why doesn't he..want me?" I whispered

Iwaizumi POV

I didn't understand what had brought this on, why Oikawa had thought that Hinata had wanted us there. He had been so obvious since the moment we let ourselves in that he wasn't happy about it, so why had Oikawa not seen it. I tried to calm him, but he kept crying more and more. It pissed me off and I thought about smacking him to snap him out of it, and then I heard the last thing he whispered. I froze not sure I really heard it, but I had. Oikawa wanted to know why Hinata didn't want him, that's when I realized why he hadn't seen Hinata's unhappiness. Why he had been so pushy since the beginning. Sure it was because he wanted to help protect Hinata, just like I did, from whatever it was hurting him. But Oikawa seemed too much, too much compared to mine or any other person who just wanted to help. It was because he was in love with Hinata, and I doubted he knew it.

I managed to get him to the nurse's office, I knew it would only be a bigger problem if anyone saw him like that. I told him to stay there until he stopped crying and then to come back to class. He whined at me when I said I was leaving, but I ignored him and went back to class. I was almost there when Hianta came up to me, that was a surprise

"Is Oikawa all right?" Hinata asked hesitantly, like he might regret asking

"Why do you ask?" Matsukawa said sliding up behind Hinata and putting his arm around the smaller boy, Hinata jumped slightly and to anyone else it might seem like surprise, but I knew him a bit better now and knew that it was in fear also.

"I just saw Iwaizumi-san gets dragged out by the Grand King and thought I'd see if he was okay." Hinata shrugged off Matsukawas arm and stepped away slightly, then looked back at me

"Hinata do you not like me?" Matsukawa asked faking being hurt by the obvious rejection "Th-"

"Trashykawa is fine." I said before he could say anything more "You should get to class so you're not late." Hinata nodded and left

That's interesting, so Hinata was worried about Oikawa. I wonder what he'd do if he found out he was trying to find a way for him to join the team, and that that was why he was running out dragging me along. I'm even more curious to know what would have happened if Hinata had found out Oikawa cried over him not caring. But maybe Hinata did care since he came to see how Oikawa was. I smiled and Matsukawa shot me a questioning look, but did not ask, probably because he knows I won't say anything.