never the same

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(just letting u guys know these all all drafts i wrote some time ago )

billie
it's been weeks since brandon and i have had a actual talk and i miss it kinda but something happened with me and josiah ...things got heated ...he hit me and punched me and punched his wall of his room

i have bruises all over my body and even in my chest . he did it because i saw kevin and he got jealous but idk why if he knows he is bi and he dosent even like me like that...he has a crush already and i've told him that so many times .

i get out of the shower and walk out with my towel . everyone's sleeping rn it's 12 am so idc.

i walk into the kitchen for some ice and hear a boo and look and see brandon

"oh hi.." i say everything awkward bc my moms been checking for me and brandon out more...

"billie you ok ive missed our talks " he says

"ye-yeah" it's not just bc of my mom but it's bc i feel josiah everywhere like he has cameras around me so every time i get near a guy i feel so nervous , especially brandon since they don't like eacother .

brandon
i sigh and grab some water but double look at billies arms,shoulders,back,neck,and chest

"billie" "what the fuck is this who did this" i point to her bruises and marks

"oh nothing i went with kevin remeber...we play fought" she lies

"billie these aren't play fight bruises-" she cuts me off like always

"can you just chill it's nothing i told you their-" she stops talking and starts to cry and covers her face "brandon please -j-just g-go" she says crying

i go over to her and hug her from behind "i'm not gonna leave this like this billie who did this" i ask i'm very concerned and i don't doubt its josiah . megan never talked to her about him witch is such a messed up thing to me after i told her he slapped her.

"i-i can't say anything just leave" she says trying to pull away from my hug

i put my chin in her shoulder and grab her small hands

"i know it's hard to tell somone what's going on but you have to trust me" i say

she looks over at me "why do you care about me " "i'm not your daughter and i can mess up my mom and yours marriage. you already saw what happend that time i tricked you to go in the shower " she chuckles and i do too

"yeah she got more protective of us but your my wife's daughter and i need to protect you " i tell her

billie
i look at him and he wipes my tears and i pull away from the hug and wipe my tears "please brandon just go to sleep" i beg

"no tell me who did this" he begs me

"don't tell my mom please even tho she won't care" "but josiah did beacuse i messed up a-" he cuts me off

"nah don't say you messed up who cares no man needs to put hands on a female ever billie" he says

i just stay quite and he lifts my chin and looks me in the eyes

"your so beautiful billie" he says and i stop what i was gonna say and look at him

our lips were gonna connect but our for heads touched instead and we both laughed lowly

"uhm we sould go to sleep now" i say and he agrees

i walk down the hallway and look back at him and he smiles

i wave bye and he dose too

i go into my room.. should i keep going with my plan of no...i feel bad but like - i don't know ... fuck

morning 11:27
billie
i wake up and get up. i go to wash my face and brush my teeth , i walk out of my room and check if my moms here to ask if i can go with kevin . i just wanna go and plus josiah has practice today for football he won't find out.

i knock and my mom says come in
"hey good morning i was gonna ask if i can go with kev for a bit" i ask

"um sure honey just come back by 6" she says and i nod but while i walk out brandon says

"aye aye " he stops me and i walk back in

"your not gonna see josiah right?" i ask and my mom sits up

"no he has football practice " i say and smile and he smiles back

i then leave the room to get ready

brandon
when she leaves i try and fall back to sleep but megan looks at me wiredly and i look at her "um...." i say

"why do you care so much if she sees Josiah " she tells me

"you haven't talked to her have you" i ask witch i know she's gonna say no

"no beacuse there's not point" she says

i get up and sigh "billies being fucking abused by his ass and you don't do shit for her i saw these bruises on her and she dosent wanna tell me anything shes scared" i say mad

"ok brandon that isn't your b-" i cut her off

"IT IS MY FUCKING BUSINESS A 18 YEAR OLD IS GETTING ABUSED MABYE EVEN RAPED BY HER BOYFRIEND AND IM SITTING AND THINKING YOUR GONNA DO SHIT FOR HER AND YOU ARENT"i yell

but then i see billie standing there

"i tol-told you not to tell her brandon" she says crying

"i'm sorry but i can't sit back and let thus happen billie" i say and she runs off crying

"go get her since you care so much" Megan says and pshs

i run out outside where she is and grab her arm "billie listen"

"NO YOU LISTEN STOP ACTING LIKE MY DAD!" "YOUR NOT" SH3 yells

"billie i care for what's going on mamas please"i get closer to her face

"brandon.." i grab her face and kiss her it's so wrong but it feels good . i kiss her roughly and then a car beeps

she pulls out and looks at me "bye brandon" she says and walks into the car and i see kev with his mouth hung open

wow.

billie
"bruh" kevin tells me as he drives off

"m?" i say

"you just kissed your moms fucking husband ...i mean i would too " he says

i laugh "he's just ..so nice you know and so sexy and his dick has to be huge " i say

kevin laughs "you tooo much but anyways why did u leave last time so fast?" he asks me

"oh...um my mom needed me.." i say and he looks at me "bil" "what's wrong ?" he asks me

"nothing i swear kev..how are you and lana doin?" i change the subject

"bil...we broke up a week ago i told you" he says

"oh right sorry my head isn't in the right place " i say and he sighs

i feel bad for lying to my best friend legit my brother but i cant say anything plus he can't tell i'm wearing a long black sleeve with some loose mom jeans so i'm all covered .