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Depression ♠️💜---------------------💜♠️
depression
/dɪˈprɛʃ(ə)n/
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('Y/N' POV )
Me and tamaki have been dating for 16 months and he is clingy but I don't mind it's cute,
I have a job because I need to make money cause ya'know money, being a hero is nice and all but it gets kinda boring, I work at a cute little corner store cafe about a 40 minute walk from tamakis home and I have to work 10 till 3 today and I'm not keen, amajiki has been laying and hiding in my boobs for 30 minutes I don't mind but I need to shower before work
"Hey bubs I need to go take a shower" I say placing my hand on his head
"Mhm" he shook his head no
"Do u want to come with me?" I ask
He became a tomato and turned away and covered his head
I get up and and slowly walk to the shower "so I'm guessing you don't want to join" I say
"I-i do bu-t"
"But want" I ask . . . . . .
"I do-nt wan-na join an-ymore"
"Ok-kay" I say
I walk into the shower and we'll shower
*Tamakis pov*
''l wanted to join but I didn't want her to see my arms and legs she'd leave me for sure'
That one comment I say to myself makes me really sad she finishes her shower and she walks out with a towel around her I look away and close my eyes so she can change
"Finished" she says
"O-okay" I say
"Alright bub I need to go to work I'll be back a 3 will you be alright here" she ask
"Yea" I said
no I won't be okay
She came over to me and kissed me on the head and walked out leaving me in the room
*Y/n pov*
I'm walking down the street, half way to work when my work called me
"Hello miss L/N I just wanted to call and tell you the shops closed today and you won't need to come into work today" my manager said
"Oh okay I'll talk to you later than" I say
"Yes ofc I'll tell you when the shop reopens"
"Thank you bye" I hung up
Now I have to talk back, wjejjjrjdij that's another 20 minutes
Argh
I start walking listening to music and moving my head to the beat
*Tamakis pov*
I didn't want her to leave I can't control myself when I'm alone I need to, I have to... Go there I can
Just do it already you have all day it's not like y/n will miss you
SHIT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
Why you know in right
I get up and being to walk to the bathroom and open the drawer to my secret hiding place were my blades are, I place it on my ruff skin reopening old and fresh scars thinking horrible things while cutting I just keep going and going I didn't stop but I need to I have to stop, the floor plated with blood and tears and hurtful memories, how long have I been in here for, i check my phone., 20 minutes, I drop the blade on the floor and rest my head on the wall.
The called sensation of the wall send a shiver through my body I take I deep breathe and than sigh
"Why do I do this" I ask my shelf
'because you know that no one cares about you'
"Y/n does she cares about me"
"Really you think someone like her would like someone like you' the voice said
"SHE DOES SHE CARES ABOUT ME, SHe does" I scream
*Y/n pov*
I walk up to tamakis home and open the door hearing muffled screams and cry's I run to the source of the noise, and stop when I get to the bathroom door
I slowly place my ear against the door and hear tamakis screaming, I knock on the door and slowly open it.
The site I saw
Send horror through my spin
"T-tamak-i" my voice cracks
"Y/n why a-re you home so ear-ly"
I collapse next to him
"W-hat are y-ou doing" i cry
"I-i"
"Please.. don't.. don't do this" I cry giving him a hug hd returned the hugged and sobbed into my shoulder, we break apart, I had finished cry but tamaki hadn't I grab his hands and pull him up and walk him to the bed,
I walked back to the bathroom and wet a cloth, grabbed some bandages and some alcohol wipes
Walking back to tamaki I clean his arms and get rid of the dry and wet blood. Placing the wet cloth in the floor I grabbed the alcohol wipes,
"This might sting alittle okay" I say looking up at him he nodding and looked away
I begin wiping his cuts, I heard him hiss and clenching his fist I finish up by bandaging his arms, finished up I pick up the used equipment and walk away having an emotionless expression on my face, getting down on my knees I cleaned up the blood in the bathroom and throw everything out walking back to the bed sitting down next to tamaki placing my hands in my lap looking down,
Silence had overcome up, tamaki placed his hand on mine and I pulled away
"Why" I whispered
"Wh-at" he said
"WHY" I raised my voice crying
"I don't kn- I. The voices told my to" he said
"What do they say"
"They say bad things, they talk about how you'll never love me and how I'm useless" he whispered
I couldn't hold back I engulfed him in a hug, tamaki was shocked but hugged me back bawling his eyes out,
"Don't you ever let the voice say that I will never love you, don't ever say your not good enough, I don't ever want to see another mark on your arms and legs I never want tp see you this broken ever again, I want you to be happy so please" I tightened my grips on his yeah "tell me if your ever feel like hurting your self please"
"O-kay" he mumbled
"PROMISE ME" I scream but not to loud to scare him
