Finding My Place | Jasper Hale

Make Your Own Decisions

Kira had spent the remainder if the week in her room, avoiding any contact with everyone. She took her meals in her room so that she did not have to sit through an agonizing meal with both her father and her sister, and she had elected to skip school, telling them that she did not yet feel well enough to go back.

Although Kira had not often been one to skip school, she did not feel up to having everyone staring at her as she walked through the halls, as "the one who got herself lost in the woods". To say she was embarrassed would be being generous. Kira was terrified of what they were going to say, but knew she had to go back eventually, and Charlie had decided that he could not take her moping around the house for another day.

Kira knew that she was going to have to go back eventually, but since she had left the hospital, she had barely received any sleep. Nightmares seemed to plague her dreams whenever she closed her eyes, so most nights Kira had just decided it would be easier not to sleep, the deep bags underneath her eyes proving this. Although she had never been one to receive constant nightmares, Kira had no clue on how to deal with them. Often times she would find herself back in the forest, only this time nobody had come to rescue her. She found herself trapped, screaming for help but nobody came to her aid. Those nights that she did manage to find herself asleep, Kira would wake up after just a few short hours, drenched in sweat and screaming, waking up the whole house.

Charlie and Bella no longer were able to deal with her night terrors, and though they did not say anything directly to her, Kira knew that Charlie spent most nights on the couch, awake and watching the television, unable to fall asleep due to her screams, and Bella had spent quite a few nights at her school friend's houses. Kira felt bad, which is why some nights she chose not to sleep at all, but tonight she could not help it. She was exhausted having not slept the previous night and could no longer control her eyes as they began to droop shut.

Kira heard her words to Jasper ringing in her ears, but there was nothing she could do to take them back. She felt her body moving quickly towards the forest, but was unable to stop it. She hears her head screaming to her body to stop, knowing that she shouldn't be going into the forest, but she is no longer in control. Her head will not listen to her body.

Suddenly her view switches. She sees herself on the forest flow, tears streaming down her face. She screams, but no one is able to hear her. She is unable to move, rooted to the spot. She sits there for such a long time, she feels herself losing track of the hours, when she hears familiar voices.

Charlie and Bella's voices ring through the silent forest, and Kira calls out to them, her voice strained due to the hours she had previously spent screaming for help. Kira watches as Charlie and Bella walk through the forest, directly past her, so close that she could touch her. But they do not notice Kira. They walk past her without even glancing at her, as they continue through the forest, despite Kira's pleads for them to help her.

Kira feels herself lose hope, about to give up when suddenly she sees another person walking through the forest, towards her. Kira feels the hope begin to swell inside her again as she recognizes it as Jasper, but as he begins to walk closer, Kira realizes that there is something off about him. Replacing his usual honey coloured eyes, are bright blood red eyes, piercing through Kira. As he grins at her, Kira feels herself become more frightened, as she can't help but notice the fangs that appear in his mouth as he gives her a toothy smile.

Kira feels Jasper advancing towards her, and as he seems to be upon her, her screams of fright echoing throughout the empty forest,

Kira jolted awake, her screams echoing back to her from the four walls creating her bedroom. She glanced over at her new clock, displaying the time 4:00 am. Kira sighed. She had slept for the longest yet, since she had been released from the hospital, but she was quickly reminded that she still had to go back to school in a few hours.