I don't know what's happening with me. Lately everything's been so numb and I can't feel anything and then again I feel everything. I feel like I'm being selfish for having feelings of my own, but people always tell me I need to start focusing on myself, then again I feel selfish for doing so. I don't know what to do. I always make everyone else happy and put the promise first, which I have been told multiple times, I can't help it. I like seeing smiles on other peoples faces rather than a smile of my own. Maybe I'm being dramatic but, it hurts kind of fix things I've probably caused without even knowing. I may or may not be crying during this period. I just feel so alone right now, it's definitely because it's 3 AM and people are sleeping. But thank goodness I have my friend Isaac to help me because both of our schedules are fucked. I also don't like the fact that when it's quiet I get a loud ringing. It's kind of annoying.
I don't have a quote for today. I'm not myself and it's probably gonna be depressing one if I put one in and I don't need to put that on anyone else. This also has not been proofread. Stay safe all of you essential and non-essential people, and thank you for stay home working. I don't wanna go back to work, because I'm essential.
PS I also just got done talking to Isaac and he really really really really hates Faucet water. He'd rather have bottled water and told me that if I ever were to fill up a bottled water with faucet water than he would spit on everything I own. Obviously in a joking manner. What a great day to be alive 😂
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What's the meaning? Hey, I'm Carly
Short StoryHey, my name is Carly. I am a very creative, artistic, caring (maybe a little too caring) type of person. Maybe stick around and read my journal? This is how I feel in my life and what I do. Thank you for reading
