Kiefer
Hindi ko na napigilan yung sarili ko kanina, I kissed her.
Para akong tanga, gusto kong lumabas ulit and halikan si Mika.
Damn it, I still want her. Until now hindi ko sya kayang tiisin! Hindi ko kayang magalit sa kanya!
Sa akin ka na lang ulit please, dito ka nalang sa akin. Pag lumabas ako dito hindi na sya makakaalis, kukulong ko na sya dito o kaya itatanan ko na sya whether she like it or not.
Actually unang kita ko pa lang sa kanya sa Tagaytay, I knew I still belong to her and kahit anong pigil gawin ko, hindi kaya pigilan gusto ko padin talaga siya.
I tried, sobra, for Miel. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko, bakit sya padin?
She broke me, galit dapat ako sa kanya e. Iniwan ka nya Kief!
Pero sya padin...
Umilaw yung phone ko, message from Miel.
Miel: Kief! Home ka na? Why are you not answering my calls? I'm worried.
Kanina pa sya tumatawag but diko talaga sinasagot.
Sh*t. How about Miel? Paano sya, I love her but ...
And she loves me, ayoko syang saktan pero
Hindi ko na kaya,
I replied,
Kiefer: Miel, home na. don't worry na ok? I'll rest na.
Miek: Ok! I will meet your Mama and Dani tom babe!Goodnight.Dont forget to take your vitamins before sleeping.
Humiga na ako sa bed and pumikit, you can't go out of this room baka di ka makapagpigil.
I can't leave Miel just like that, I need to talk to her first. I need to see her, I have to tell her.
How?
She has to know, hindi ko sya kayang lokohin.
Itutulog ko nalang muna to.
I heard Mika calling my name, I didn't move. Pag bumangon ako ngayon baka Kung ano magawa ko.
I heard her footsteps inside the room,her sobs.
T*ng*na ka talaga Kiefer she's crying na naman.
She sat on my bed, kissed me and said goodbye.
Wala na sya. Gustong gusto ko sya habulin and yakapin buong araw. I need her.
P*cha.
Anong ginawa mo sa akin Mika, bakit nababaliw na ako sayo!
Hindi na ako nakatulog kaka isip kay Mika and Miel.
I just stayed here sa condo the whole day, I'm going to break Miel's heart.
Parang di ko kaya, but I'm so in love with someone else.
I haven't heard from Miel for two days, she told me busy lang sa photo shoot.
Ok na rin, nakapagisip isip ako.
She called me, she'll drop by tom morning.
This is it. You have to tell her.
7am
I heard someone opened the door of my unit.
Napapikit na lang ako, she's here. Stupid me hindi ko parin alam gagawin ko, pano ko ba sasabihin.
Then she opened the door of my room.
Miel: Babe? Kief? Awake?
Kiefer: Baby? Come here, dito sa tabi ko.
Miel: Goodmorning!
She kissed me and Humiga sa tabi ko.
Niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit and hinalikan ko yung forehead nya.
Magkayakap lang kami, walang nagsasalita.
Naka tingin lang kami pareho sa window.
Then I noticed she started crying.
Magkasunod dalawang babae na napaiyak dito sa kwarto ko.
Pinunasan ko yung luha sa cheeks nya.
Kiefer: "Miel, don't cry please. You know I don't like seeing you crying."
Miel: "I know, I know sorry. it's just that I'll gonna miss this. I'm gonna miss you."
Lalo syang umiyak, ewan ko pero parang naninikip yung throat ko.
I think alam na nya. T*r*ntado ka Kiefer.
Kiefer: "I'm sorry. I tried. Minahal kita, totoo yun."
Naiyak na din ako, Ang hirap pala, Ang hirap kasi nasasaktan ko sya.
Miel: I know, and I'm thankful because you loved me. I love you, I want to fight for you but I can't, I shouldn't. You still love her, sya pa rin diba?
Kiefer: Miel.
Umupo ako, I cupped her face, hinalikan ko ulit yung forehead nya.
Kiefer: "Siya parin e. I'm sorry. " Napayuko ako, Binitiwan ko yung face nya.
"Hindi ko alam bakit sya padin nandito." Tinuro ko yung heart ko.
"Kahit anong pigil ko, ayaw mawala dito." Sinusuntok suntok ko yung dibdib ko.
"Ikakasal na sya, Masakit na e, nasasaktan pa kita. "
Miel: "You should tell her, tell her what's inside there" tinuro nya rin yung heart ko.
Tiningnan ko lang sya.
Miel: "Don't be a coward Kief, let her know lahat ng nararamdaman mo, before it's too late. No regrets diba? And don't worry,I'll be ok. I'd rather see you happy with her than stay with me, kahit na yung heart mo belongs to her para lang not to hurt me. Magkakasakitan lang tayo if that's what we'll do Kief, and we both know we don't like that diba? Ayokong mag away tayo. This will not going to be easy for both of us, but we just have to do it. Now. I'm letting you go.
