Imma just write the way I want to bc I can't make up my mind and I really like this one. Idk what I just wrote lmao.
Mattia deepens the kiss and we start making out then he starts to pull my body into his lap and he's gripping my ass and kissing down my neck ,everywhere he kisses makes me get goosebumps . He leans back onto the bed to where I'm on top of him and rocking my hips back and forth on his sweats causing him to let out a moan and grow hard . He starts taking off my shirt then starts unclipping my bra and I take off his shirt . Wait do I want this? Do I wanna lose it to a guy who broke my heart and cheated on me not once but twice and he might even do it again ? No I am not going to do that to myself I need way more self respect then that.
" M- Mattia can we stop I just don't I- I can't lose it to someone who cheated on me with another girl more than once . I think and feel that you just see me as a rebound." I say getting off him
" yeah we can stop. I'm sorry that I hurt you but I do not see you as a rebound y/n!" He says sitting up
" I just I- idk anymore because you promised me that you wouldn't hurt me again after Jenna , But you broke that promise. so how do I know that you really love me and that after we have sex your not just gonna break my heart again and leave me??"
" baby I promise I won't break your heart again" he says caressing my face
" see there you go again promising things and you're probably going to break the promise and my heart again. I just can't right now I'm sorry " I say
" I-im sorry........ look I'm sorry if I'm not good enough for you or if we'll ever love each other. Why can you ever JUST LOVE ME LIKE I LOVE YOU god dammit ?! You know what forget it imma just go to my room" he says leaving
" m- Mattia no I" I say as he leaves and he slams the door behind him
" NO Y/N JUST FORGET THIS EVER HAPPENED AND HOW YOU THINK I MIGHT HURT YOU AND ALL THE OTHER SHIT. IVE DONE SO MUCH FOR YOU BUT IM DONE " I hear him shout outside my door then slamming his door hard causing me to jump and start shaking
"Great what did I just do? I always fuck shit up " I say throwing my phone somewhere and I hear a big crash UH FUCK . I end end curling up into a ball then lying on my side and crying.Uh great my phone is probably cracked great just great.
* the door opens*
" hey um I heard shouting then something crash, is everything okay" Kairi says walking in then picking up the stuff that fell and putting my phone on the dresser next to me and wiping his eyes for some reason
" mhm y- yeah everything is um okay" I say sniffling
" what's wrong Are you okay ?" He says lying down next to me and I scoot next to him and cry onto his chest. Why is he always shirtless?!
" it's just that me and Mattia started kissing and then when he started taking off my bra I stopped him and said I don't know if it's a good idea if we should do it because he literally just got done with Cynthia and idk what the fuck I was thinking and if he's just using me as a rebound or he just wants the sex which we never had and it would be my first and I want it to be with someone that I love and they love me back . Then he started telling me that he loves me and always will and how he never stopped. And he promised that he wouldn't break my heart again and that was the same promise he told me last time and he really broke me bad and I really don't know if he loves me like he said he did. And I told him that and he stormed off and slammed the door and started yelling at me and I threw my phone somewhere " I say crying into his chest
" oh. Well he doesn't deserve you, you are so much better and deserve better. He's just I don't know probably under stress and doesn't think about his actions and he is dumb for cheating on you." He says caressing my arm and pulling me in close and sniffling
" t t t -thanks I don't know what I'd do without a best friend like you" I say kissing his cheek then putting my head on the crook of my neck then I felt a drop on my face
" are you okay?"I say sitting up
" yeah...... I was thinking about how I love this girl so much but she hates me " he says sitting up
" w why did you mess up with her?" I ask
" because did something wrong and I love someone who probably doesn't like me and hates my guts " he says playing with his fingers
" oh um I'm sorry" I say choking on my tears
" no it's fine. I just wonder if this person realizes that I love them" he says looking into my eyes
" oh ...... well who is it? Do I know her?"
" yeah something like that...... you know what fuck it yolo Y/N THINK THAT I LOVE YOU" he says
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