Lost
The young soul struggling to find shelter within
Depending on no one
What the fuck is a friend!?
Another label for some creature that justifies my self hatred?
Why should I depend on you to keep me lifted? Isn't that what my mind and soul are for ?
To give me the strength I shunned away when they told me I wasn't gifted.
Enough to write that poem or pass that ball to claim myself ,embrace my faults ,
Or love my entirety.
How did I get here again?
Fear consumes me
I'm afraid to feel
I'm afraid to heal
I'm afraid to discover me
Because opening up scares me
Assessing wounds terrifies me
Releasing frightens me
Remembering hurts me
My thoughts concern me
How did I get here again ?
this feeling of abandonment is overwhelming
I did not ask to be here
God this is your plan
Why does living hurts so bad
I. Can't. (Gasp) Breathe. Breathe. BREATHE
Within me lives a beast , an angel keeping everything in tune
Chaotic notes she sings, my sanity clinching between
the palms of my mothers as I hope that man doesn't come home.
I'm terrified
Cus I know he's high
And I know he'll lie
And he says he's going to try
The agony of pain grips my insides
But I trust you bc I love you and love can do no harm
but that pipe keeps you warm
Her voice is so annoying
telling you things you need to hear, her words uproot your deepest fears
You put your hands on my mother after all these years!? She stood by your side through your foolishness and selfish pride. You vowed to ride
this thing out further than you could chase the sunrise. What happened to you guys?
How did I get here again
You thought I could not feel but I'm innocent and transparent
I absorb your vibes
Translate the language unspoken
Embody your thoughts and comprehend you cries
I know how you feel
And I shouldn't.
Trace your tears back to those years that made you stand
uneven grounds.
Surface the seas, manage the breeze and carry on with ease. I appreciate your efforts to keep my awareness ceased
but I see
That love don't love nobody
But love controls somebody
Love drives you to forget the things that matter and to stick to the patten of I love yous and I miss you
those forbidden unforgivable fraud and tainted I do's
But what do you do?
So once more...
How tf did I get here again ?
