Short Stories

I Still Love Him

𝗜 𝗦𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗛𝗶𝗺

Andito ako ngayon sa condo ng boyfriend ko, nag mo-movie marathon kami puro nalang kasi kami gala kaya naisipan naming mag movie marathon atsyaka antagal na din naming hindi nagmovie marathon. 4years ago na ata yun, nung hindi pa kami.

"Babe." Tawag sakin ni logan, ang boyfriend ko.

Tumingin ako sakanya at ngumiti, "Yes babe?"

"What do you want to drink,babe?"

"Juice nalang babe"tapos tumawa ako sabay sabing "Softdrinks sana kaso bawal pala sakin."

He glared at me, "Matigas talaga ulo mo, umiinom kapa din ba ng softdrinks?"

"Syempre hindi na babe." Natatawa ako, nagagalit talaga sya kapag kinakain ko ang mga bawal sakin.

" Okay, good, wait for me, I will just get your juice." I just nod, and he left

Nag isip ako nung umalis sya, ang bait ng boyfriend ko pero parang may kulang. Ibinibigay naman nya lahat pero para pa din akong nakukulangan. Nawawala na yung feelings ko sakanya, I don't know why.

When I lost my feelings for him last month, I was trying to bring back my feelings because it might have been gone for a while, but nothing was really happening, maybe I need to finish this.

Napatagal pala ang pag iisip ko dahil hindi ko namalayan andito na pala sya sa tabi ko.

"Babe, may nahahalata ako." Bigla nyang sabi, kinabahan na ako. He sighed and continued talking,
"Babe nagiging cold ka na, nahahalata ko yun pero hindi nalang ako umiimik, nagsasawa ka na ba sakin?"

Namumuo na yung luha ko sa mata, this is it sasabihin ko na yung gusto kong sabihin.

"Babe, hindi ako nagsasawa sayo. Nagsasawa na ako sa relasyon natin, hindi sayo. Y-you give to me the all i want, you give the love that I don't deserve."  I stop my tears as much as I can.

"No babe no. I give you the love b'coz u deserve it, don't say that you don't deserve that." This time napabuntong hininga ulit sya, kaso mas malalim ngayon.

Siguro kailangan ko na talagang sabihin ngayon sakanya yung gusto kong sabihin, ayaw ko ng patagalin to. Hindi na magwo-work tong relationship namin kung sya na lang nagmamahal saming dalawa.

Humarap ako sakanyang umiiyak, "Logan, m-mahal ko pa din s-sya." He suddenly looked at me. I looked straight into his eyes and saw that just a little more tears were about to fall from his eyes, sobrang sama ko.

"Why avon? Why?"I stared at him and now I saw the mixed emotions in his eyes. Anger, pain etc.

"Akala ko nakamove on na ako sakanya,Logan. Akala ko wala na akong nararamdaman sakanya, akala ko kapag nakita ko ulit sya hindi ko na sya mahal, pero akala ko lang pala lahat ng yun." Napahinga ako ng malalim, dahil sobra na ang iyak ko.

"I didn't use you, Logan. Because before I answered you, I know I have moved on, I am confused with myself now because my love for that person is coming back. I am so stupid, I am so stupid." Sinasampal sampal ko yung pisnge ko habang umiiyak, logan stop my hand from slapping my own cheeks.

"Yes i know you didn't use me, alam ko na yung mga binibigay mong pagmamahal sakin at yung mga effort alam ko totoo yun, alam ko minahal mo din ako as your boyfriend." While he is saying that I know he is really hurt, "Pero alam ko mas mahal mo si Drake kaysa sa'akin." He smiled at me, but that smile is sad smile.

" I know you moved on from Drake when you answered me, but I know you still love him. I understand that you won't forget him immediately, you've been together for so long, childhood bestfriend mo sya tapos 9years pa yung relationship nyo, eh satin 1year and 7months pa lang. Hindi ka tanga, ako yung tanga sa ating dalawa kasi alam ko na ngang mahal mo pa sya niligawan pa din kita, kasi akala ko mas mamahalin mo ako kaysa kay Drake, akala ko magtatagal din tayo kagaya nyo, yung hanggang huling hininga ko tayo pa din, kaso akala ko nga lang pala lahat ng yun." He smiled again but at the same time when he smiled, tears dropped from his eyes.

Sobra akong nasasaktan habang nakikita ko siyang ganyan, hindi ko sinadyang saktan sya. I really loved him but when I saw Drake again my love for Drake came back again.

"You fixed my broken heart, u fixed me. B-but i broke you, hindi ko talaga sinasadya Logan. Siguro nga, siguro nga hindi talaga tayo yung para sa isa't isa." After I said that, I hugged him tight, so tight.

Kumalas ako sa pagyayakapan namin at humarap sakanya sabay ngiti. "Thank you for understanding me, thank you for cheering me up when no one did that, thankyou because you're always here, thank you for making me happy when I'm sad, Thank you for coming in to my life, thank you for EVERYTHING. Hinding hindi ko kakalimutan ang pinagsamahan natin."

Ngumiti rin sya saakin nung natapos na akong magsalita. "Welcome, Avon. I did all of that because I love you. Let's break up, I'm going to Canada to move on."Lumapit siya sa akin at hinalikan ang noo ko sabay yakap sa akin ng mahigpit.

"I will miss you, Avon."

𝘼𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙉𝙞𝙣𝙚 𝙔𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨

"You may kiss the bride." Sabi ni Father.

The guy in front of me smiled at me, and kissed me full of love.

"I love you, Avon."  I smiled at him, making me cry because of the lot we went through.

"I love you too, 𝗟𝗼𝗴𝗮𝗻." Yes, tama kayo ng binasa, si Logan nga ang husband ko at hindi si Drake. I thought i still love Drake, but i was wrong.

I still love him, I'm still inlove with Logan.

𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙀𝙉𝘿.

𝘗𝘚. 𝖲𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗒 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝗋𝗈𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗆𝗆𝖺𝗋'𝗌, 𝗁𝗂𝗇𝖽𝗂 𝗉𝗈 𝖺𝗄𝗈 𝗆𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗆𝖺𝗌𝗒𝖺𝖽𝗈 𝗌𝖺 𝖾𝗇𝗀𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗁 𝗁𝖾𝗁𝖾𝗁𝗂, 𝗇𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗅𝖺𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗄𝗈 𝗄𝖺𝗒𝖺 𝖺𝗄𝗈 𝗀𝗎𝗆𝖺𝗐𝖺 𝗇𝗀 𝖮𝗇𝖾 𝖲𝗁𝗈𝗍 𝖲𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗒.