Fame, Money, Feelings

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"Maya.." someone called my name but I was to tired and felt empty to answer
"Tony it's not the time... she needs time alone" I hear a females voice say. They we're right, I want time alone, time to think.....
I go up the stairs and rush to my room locking it, I go sit in in my bed and grab a pillow. I cry in it and just think about how gross I feel and how the world knows everything.
"Maya?" Someone knocked on my door calling my name to open them. I get up and open not seeing who it is
"How are you sis?" My brothers came in and sat with me
"I-I'm fine, I just feel... ashamed that everyone knows now" I wipe my tears and look up to my brothers both of them crying with me. They both pull me into a hug and I wrap my hand around their necks and cry, that's the only thing I could do now...
"Maya I'm so sorry we weren't there for you. I promise that no one will ever hurt you again. I'm sorry" my older brother sobbed feeling guilty
"No no, don't say that,it's wasn't your fault. We we're kids we didn't know that John could be a monster. It's no ones fault" I pull away and cup my hands on my brothers face making sure to let him know it wasn't his fault
"We couldn't help you with John but I promise you we will protect you from anyone!" My other brother Isaac said getting up. I knew he was mad... but he was mad at himself
"Isaac,Omar no. This is not our fault it's his!" I get closer to Isaac to calm him down
"Stop blaming yourself please" my voice is weak now. They sigh and they both started to tear up.  I know this is hard for everyone, mostly for me, but it's also hard to see all my loved ones affected like this.....
"I'm gonna go get some food.." my older brother said. I knew he wasn't he just wanted to escape reality like me..
"Me too. Call us if you need anything" Isaac said hugging me and both of them leaving. I went back to my bed covering myself up in the soft white blanket that I had, I slowly feel my eyes getting heavier and heavier and I slowly drift to sleep

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"Dad stop please! It hurts!" I beg my dad to stop but all I heard was him groaning
"Shut up! I swear if you say anything to anyone! I'll kill your mom and your bothers! I'll take you with me and your life will be miserable!My dad said in my ear still doing what he was doing
"Dad stop! Please! " i cry loud and he covers up my mouth
"No! Stop Dad you are hurting me!" I try to scream but nothing would work... all I could do was cry now...
"Maya! Maya!" Someone screamed and I woke up in a snap and I sit up seeing Tony,Tayler,Avani and Dixie. I look around and see that it was all just a nightmare of that day
"Shhh it's a nightmare it's fine" Tony came closer wrapping his arms around and I snuggle into his chest with my heavy breathing and sweaty forehead
"I'm sorry" I mumble grabbing his shirt
"Don't worry Maya, we are here for you" he hugged me tighter and that's the only way I could forget of my problems.
"I-I should get going" Tayler's says avoiding to look at me hugging Tony. Shit I forgot about what he had.... I was tired but I had to fix this and tell him that... my heart belongs to Tony
"Wait!" I shout and he stops in the door
"Can we talk?" He slowly turns around and nods
"If you need anything we are going to be outside" Avani says while getting everyone out the room and I nod. I wait for everyone to leave and when they do I start to talk
"Look Tayler I-" I say but he stops me
"Maya don't worry, I know what you want to talk about" he looks deeply in my eyes
"I know that you want Tony... don't worry about me I'll be fine" he says giving me small weak smile, but I knew he was a little sad
"I'm sorry.. I don't want to break you" I mumble looking down at my legs
"Break me?" He gives me a little laugh
"No you didn't Maya. It's ok I promise I knew this before. I just want you to be happy and remember that if you need to talk I'm here ok" Tayler says grabbing my hands and putting his hand on my cheek
"Friends then?" He gives a nice smile and I smile back
"Friends!" I say and I hug him and rest my Chin on his shoulder