Shadows from the past (MCU OC)

Diary 2

Dear diary,

Today was hard. First I couldn't fall asleep last night so I was tired as hell.
Then when I finally fell asleep, I had the same nightmare again. I Didn't want to tell my therapist about it, Cause she was so happy that I was doing better. Then when I finally was out of bed I couldn't find my blouse, so I had to wear my Shadow blouse. My boss wasn't happy about that. "By wearing black to work, you give up such a depressive vibe to other workers, bla bla bla. Why can't he give me a break for one day. I mean come on! 2 hours later he came inside telling me to pack my stuff and leave.

I took the metro back home and did the thing that made me calm. Stealing.
I put on my shadow suit (well the pants and stuff because I had the blouse already on) and got to business. It didn't take long for me to find the one I was about to rob. My old boss, he lived in the richer side of the city. Big house, Big garden and a lot of money, what I needed. So I let myself in and got to work. After 2 hours I was done and had every piece of jewelry, money and others small stuff there was . I got out safe and sold it right away. It gave me enough for 6 months of rent and food!
After that I just relaxed and watched some tv. Now I think back to it I'm ashamed of myself. I hadn't stolen for about a month.. I ques I have to go on patrol more often to compromise with this.

I still haven't found anything that could fix my problem.. I'm getting more scared as time ticks by. I really need to find a way to save myself before it is to late. I got 8 months and 17 day's left before I turn 18... I just don't want it to end.

~ Shadow