Never thought I would ever write something like this but here it is- to 1 of my most cherished friendships and people. This goes out to Lorena or Rena as people knew her
This still feels fake to me and I can't help but think of myself like a horrible friend for not being there. Rena I wish I was stronger like you but I am so broken and have met with anger like never before which makes me feel worse because I know this is not what you wanted
I met you through dance and I grew with you through dance and we flourished through dance and we laughed through dance and cried through dance and competed through dance and bonded through dance but most important of all, we became 1 through dance
Now how can I view dance the same way? How can I call myself a dancer after you? I feel defeated because it was like 1 day you were doing big things in your life and the next you were stuck in hospitals, taking chemo and then you were told you'd be fine but they lied and fuck them, they lied to you because you're gone
My best friend how will I ever go on without you? This was not in any of my plans so I wasn't ready and I love you I'm so sorry please forgive me, I wish I was there before you went never thought you would be taken from me so quickly beautiful
I met my best friend at 13 and lost her to pancreatic cancer already there is nothing right about this but maybe someone who is grieving knows they aren't alone. I plan to turn this pain into some beautiful to leave behind when I get the motivation because it's exactly what my Rena wanted
thank you and sorry if you've read through this all 💛
Stay bright ☀️💛 -Sarah
