𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙫𝙚

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𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙚𝙩'𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙫

i pulled up in front of daniel's apartment. my heart is beating a mile a minute. i got out of my car and walked up the steps to his apartment before opening the door.

"where were you!" he yelled as soon as i walked is. it wasn't even in the phrase of a question, it was more like he was just telling it at me.

"i told you i was at-" i started.

"bullshit! you went to the sway house to see those fuck heads" he yelled getting closer to me.

"i-i" i could barely speak.

"did you go see your big strong brother? did he protect you?" he asked, getting closer to my face. i could smell the alcohol on his breath, it made me sick.

"you're drunk" i said, tears forming in my eyes.

"or did you see jaden?" he asked, walking way.

"don't bring him into this" i yelled before the tears started to spill from my eyes.

"oh i see. i can bring up your big protective brother but the second i bring up jaden, oh i can't talk about him" he yelled back, picking up his beer bottle and taking another swig.

"you don't know any of them, so don't you fucking talk about them like you do" i yelled.

"oh shut up" he said, finishing his beer.

"you know what i'm out of here" i said grabbing my keys.

as i was about to open the door, a beer bottle smashed against the wall next to my head. i turned around to look at him in shock.

"oops i missed" he said, approaching me. "you have no where to go, you could go to avani's but i'd just show up, you could go to your protective big bro but i could knock his ass out in a second" he said, snatching my keys and walking to the bedroom, slamming the door.

i broke down and cried, again, falling in the couch. i took out my phone and went to snapchat, trying to calm down.

i went to my snapchat memories and scrolled back before all the snapchats with daniel. i put in my airpods and started watching videos from when i lived in the house.

i started to feel better when i saw a video i had never seen. jaden was in the thumbnail. i clicked the video and jaden's face appeared on my phone.

"hey babygirl" he whispered. "you're asleep right now, but look how cute you are"

he showed the camera towards my face, i was asleep. he leaned over an kissed my cheek. i would do anything for him to kiss my cheek right now.

i fell asleep on the couch, listening to that video on repeat until my phone shut off.

~

"baby?" i heard daniel ask.

my head was pounding. crying all night long had dehydrated my body. my airpods were still in but nothing played, as my phone shut off during the night.

"hmm" i said, still half asleep.

"baby i am so sorry. i should have never drank that much. i let it get out of hand i'm so sorry" daniel said, pulling my body to his chest.

"it's okay, i forgive you" i said as i hugged him back.

i took out my airpods and put them away and cuddled to daniel's side.

"i just- you and those guys are so close and i just got a little jealous" he said.

"i know" i said, a small tear streaming down my cheek, the memories from the night before flooding back.

"i don't think you should see them anymore" he said, looking at me.

"what?" i said looking at him.

"all they seem to do is make you upset. every time you see them and you come home you are always upset" he said, wiping the tear from my cheek.

"o-oh well yeah" i said.

"as long as you have me, you don't need any of those other guys, right?" he asked, combing him finger through my hair.

"right, yeah you're right" i looked up smiling at him.

the more interaction i have with jaden, the harder it will be to forget about him. this is what best for me, right.

~

daniel went to work and i stayed home. he told me he would be working late again, so i asked if i could invite avani over and he said i could as long as none of the sway boys came with.

i called avani to invited her over and thankfully she agreed.

"hey bebe" she said when she got to the apartment.

"hey" i said, faking a smile.

"so what do you wanna do today?" avani asked, sitting on the couch.

"umm i don't know, wanna watch a movie?" i asked, getting up to grab some food from the kitchen.

"sure" she said back.

i grabbed some chips and snacks from the kitchen and while i was in there i saw the vodka on the counter. i looked around briefly before grabbing the bottle and and a can of coke from the fridge. i poured them into a glass, mixing them before drinking half of it immediately.

the taste burned my throat and almost made me throw up, but the tingly sensation that began to flow threw my body began to melt away the pain in my chest.

"vani!" i called. "you wanna get wasted?"