I've never really loved myself enough to let you go
But I dont love you enough to let you know
You're entitled , and my heart is something I cant let you own
I dont want you to be the drug that I'm on
Because you're addictive , but then you're not here
So I'm left scratching and panting grasping for air
And then you come back
Get me all the way up on cloud nine
Then I forget my ground and crash
Broken and battered you call me "mine"
But I know you could never be mine
And I'll never truly be yours
In this moment in time
This moment of our lives
I could never be the one you adore
And it's alright
it's a love hate relationship
You're a drug , I need to get rehabilitated
I need to get you to walk out of the door
To fully leave my system so ,
That there's no trace of thought
That leads back to memories of you
Memories of us and maybe my imagination leads to possibly new
Future moments with you
But I'm still addicted so I will take you in
Like I always do.
-Blue ink
