Irresistible // Love Island 2019 <3

5: Contemplating

I woke up to the lights blinding through my vision. I yawned and squinted opening my eyes.

I smiled as I saw Anton sit where Maura was previously laid, he sat cross legged while I still lay down

I opened my arms for a hug and he leaned down and hugged me putting his head in my neck

"Morning" Anton said and I smiled and ruffled his hair

"Good morning" I said back and he sat up

He grinned to me and I sat up and got out of bed stretching

I saw Molly get up and me and her headed upstairs together to get ready

"So how did you sleep?" Molly asked me as we went up the stairs

"Yeah good, I love the beds honestly" I said as we approached the dressing room

"I know I love them, whats your approach today then what are you gonna do" Molly said as we went on to the terrace to have a chat

"I think probably just the same as yesterday, have more chats get to know people a bit more, I'm still in the same dilemma like I am stuck between Anton and Michael" I said and Molly nodded

"If you had to choose right now who would it be" Molly asked trying to get me to pick a direction

We were now both sitting down on the bench

"I really don't know like me and Michael have such great chats and me and Anton get along so well like I'm genuinely torn" I said and groaned putting my face in my hands

"Do you think maybe your only contemplating because of amber?" Molly asked "just a guess but if Amber wasn't in here would the answer be Michael"

I sighed

"Honestly probably yeah" I said "as bad as that sounds, But I really do think Anton is lovely and like I do like him but I just feel like my chats with Michael have come more naturally and we get along better. But Amber is here at the end of the day so I have to be respectful to her" I said and Molly nodded

"Yeah I get that like when your around Michael your smiley and it's not forced, not that it is with Anton but it just comes natural." Molly said with me agreeing "but remember as much as you don't wanna do that to Amber your number one and you need to put yourself first"

"Yeah I know I'm just confused because I feel like I've had more chats with Michael I need to just get to know Anton a bit more because I do like him" I said "that's the thing about being in here though you don't know how much time you have"

My hair was all static I could see it flying about out the corner of my eye and it was frustrating me

"Yeah I know it's so hard, I was the same with Tommy and Anton" Molly said

"But obviously Elma likes Anton too and I think he likes her aswell" I said and she nodded

"I know I feel like they two don't go though" Molly said to which I just shrugged

"How are you feeling about the whole Tommy and Maura thing anyway" I asked her

"Yeah not to good, I just feel shit like it's just annoying cause I like him a lot. Last night I got annoyed cause he was sleeping in the living room and didn't even bother to tell me, but after the lights went out he came and sneaked in the bed" Molly said and I squealed

"Really?" I asked and she nodded "god I don't know, I do think he likes you you know, I hope so."

"Me too, cause I do really like him and it's just took Maura coming in for me to realise that and I know it's my fault for not telling him sooner" Molly said

"Honestly don't blame your self, everyone needs to explore their options and sometimes it takes stuff like this to make you see what you want, which is understandable" I said and gave her a hug

We both went in to get ready.

I showered before cleansing and moisturising

I decided on a pink one piece which was low cut so made my boobs look good, it had a low back.

I put on sliders and dried my hair leaving it naturally straight.

I went downstairs and to the kitchen to get a coffee and saw Anton, Tommy and Curtis there.

"Morning boys" I smiled to them and they smiled back

"Good morning, would you like a coffee" Curtis asked and I smiled

"That would be lovely thank you babe" I said and sat on the counter beside where Anton was standing

"How you doing" Tommy asked me and I nodded

"Yeah good I'm really having a good time in here like I love it" I said and they smiled

"I'm glad how's the girls been" tommy asked

"Honestly so lovely like I get along with all them genuinely so well, they made me feel so welcome" I said and Anton sent me a big smile

"They did take to you really fast like it's actually nice to see, it's a different story with Maura and Elma though" Curtis said to me and I nodded

"Yeah i don't know I've always got along with people well" I said and they nodded

Curtis handed me over a coffee

"Here you go my darling" Curtis said and I smiled

"Thank you lovely" I said hack to him and gave him a hug

Me, Curtis, Danny and Yewande all sat on a day bed

"So who have you got your eye on then" Danny asked me curiously

"I don't actually know I'm a bit confused really" I said

"From what i last heard it was Michael?" Curtis said

"Yeah like it's between Michael and Anton but like it's a complicated situation, I find it hard to like jump right into things where as I feel like Elma and Anton have already like bonded if that makes sense and obviously Michael has Amber" I said and they nodded

"I think Michael likes you ya know" Danny said to me and I raised my eyebrows

"Do you?" I asked and Danny and Curtis both nodded

"He was speaking last night about your chats and he just seems fond of you, but like Mike has too much pride like he won't admit to it cause he doesn't wanna look like a prick to Amber if that makes sense so he won't say anything" Curtis said

"That's the thing though it makes everything so complicated like him and amber are good. I think I might just take a step back, get to know Anton and let mike and amber get on with it" I said "because I don't wanna get involved in a triangle and I like amber she's lovely"

"But then are you only getting to know Anton because Michael is set with amber?" Yewande asked me and I shook my head

"No definitely not like it's 5050 anyway but I feel like cause of amber I'm leaning more towards Anton, is that bad?" I asked and they shook their heads

"No I get you like as a girl you respect her, which is fine, but if you feel you like Michael don't put it off your better to be open" Yewande said

I nodded

I feel like me and Michael get along well but I don't wanna get in the way of him and Amber

That's not fair on her

And Anton is lovely like, he's a Diamond

"Oh look" Curtis pointed out and I turned to see Molly approaching Maura and tommy

"Oh that's not good" I said as Molly said something causing tommy to leave the two girls