Hello, amigos.
I wish I was here, telling you some joyful tidings, but alas, it cannot be so.
I have been thinking a long time about this decision. It is something that has been taunting me for a few months, but always brushed aside due to my fears.
Ah, whatever. Fuck it.
I'm going to take a break.
You see, I have been on Wattpad since July 2017. 2017. i was a 14 year old infant, testing the waters of this app, previously been ghost reading more than a few original teen fiction. I was so innocent then.
No, actually, I wasn't, but let's pretend I was.
It was around this time I published that god-awful Jimin Fic, which still haunts my sleep paralysis. Alice, if you're reading this, I will never regret deleting that piece of shit. It had to be done.
However, in the course of these three years, I have achieved many personal goals I take pride over. Wild Thoughts has surpassed a staggering 1.5 MILLION reads, Lonely nearly hitting 100K and my darling baby, Casanova, on it's way to 400K. I would be lying if I said I wasn't brimmed with joy seeing my progress, and I have to thank all of you for letting me see my humble stories grow.
Like every journey taken by anyone, though, there must be rests granted so the travelers do not over-tire themselves. And y'all, I am truly exhausted. I have not let myself take a break, which was unfair to myself, and it has lead me to be dangerously on the verge of reverting my journey altogether.
You see, I have discovered new paths. Y'all probably know from my constant Chan simping that I have recently been getting into Stray Kids and goddamn, y'all, I want to write out an entire universe's worth of writings for them. Yes, BTS will always have a special place in my heart, but I want to move on. I want to channel my love for writing in another path, a path where Stray Kids wait for me with open arms. Lord knows my legs are open as I run towards them.
I've also seen a lot of toxicity on here. Clout chasers, shit-stirrers, plagiarisers, God, I've seen them all. And it's left a horrific aftertaste within my wattpad usage. It's disappointing as an older user, who has seen almost zero toxicity on here, to watch this site go to shit. And it has. We have to admit. But oh well. At least I'm satisfied knowing I haven't contributed towards all that whack ass shit.
And to the people who have — shame on you. I got my fucking eye on y'all attention-leeching hoes.
Anyway
Now, this doesn't mean goodbye. This account, this identity I've nurtured for over a thousand days is much too precious for me to abandon so randomly, with such short notice. Take this as a "see you later". Although I will not come back for a while, it does not mean I am gone forever.
Perhaps I will return, for I have had something in my drafts which I have been preparing for over a year, but that depends whether I have the energy to write full fics. Don't be too hopeful — I'm a very lazy bitch. As of now, I am trying really hard not to kill myself over my online classes, but maybe I'll keep ignoring my teachers. Who knows.
In regards to my works, all the completed will stay up. Those are my pride and joy, and knowing they will continue being enjoyed by more people still puts a smile to my face. However, I am going to take down the Outcasts. Now before y'all attack me, this was a hard decision for me. I love that crackfic to death, but this was yet another journey I do not have the energy, nor frankly the desire, to take. It is best left alone, and walled up.
Now. If you all still want to read some of my newer shit, I will be creating Stray Kids oneshots on Tumblr. It is a site which has greatly interested me, and honestly, the writing is chef's kiss. I don't even mind reading some raunchy ass vampire! chan aus because they're written so well. Point is, I'm hooked, and I want to be a part of it.
So, if y'all are bored and ignoring your projects just like me, then hop over @/chanluster, where I'll be quietly residing as I post imagines and oneshots. Maybe even a historical series. Y'all already know I'm a slut for those.
Right. It's been a wild three years, and I've made some very memorable friendships. IBWT gang, if y'all reading this, I fucking love you skanky ass hoes. You goofy ass bitches. Sexy losers. Never leave my clingy ass.
Okay. Enough dragging. I'm getting a little tired and I want to watch a Chan live as I'm in the mood for simping. Thank you for reading this so far, and another thank you for supporting me on my Wattpad journey, whether you were here from the start or have joined me today. If I have missed anything, or y'all have any questions, feel free to ask!
This is not a farewell. May we see each other again.
Adios, mi amors.
