Rant/Randomness Book

Everything is dull

I'm having an "emotional episode" as my parents call it where I just feel alone and insignificant and like no one cares and that I don't matter
And I start overthinking and feeling like everyone is ignoring me which is fine
I deserve to be ignored I don't bring anything useful to the table
And that if I died right now nothing will change it's just a less mouth to feed for my parents and my friends can take me out of group chats to add new people that they befriended

It's not like my life has any meaning