Still Madness [Book 2]

Chapter 3.

It felt like I have been sleeping since forever.

I slowly opened my eyes. Kumurap kurap ako para i adjust ang paningin ko. It's still blurry, so I closed my eyes again for a second. When my eyes saw the white ceiling, unti unti akong napangiti.

I am pretty sure na hindi lang panaghinip ang katotohanan na nakatakas ako. Ramdam ko ang lamig ng hangin sa balat ko. My eyes started to get teary. Naisip ko lahat ngnangyari and now.. Any moment ay alan ko na makikita ko na ang mga tao na gustong gusto ko makita.

I tried to move, but I feel so weak. Parang hindi ko maramdaman ang katawan ko. Hindi ako makalingon. My throat is dry and I want to drink a galon of water of so much thirst.

I hears the door cricked after a while. Ipinikit ko ulit ang mga mata ko. Bigla akong nalula. Nakiramdam ko kung sino man ang papasok na iyon.

"Yes, I know. Thank you so much."

Automatic na uminit ang mga mata ko upon recignizing the voice.

"Hinihintay pa namin na magising sya pero ang sabi ng doctor, any time na daw."

She seemed to be talkinf with someone on her phone. Narinig ko ang tunog ng leather couch when she sat there.

God. How I missed hearing Elise's voice and laugh.

My tears fell from my eyes. I want to get up quick and give him a bone breaking hug and an earth shattering kiss. I want to tell her how much I missed her and how hard it was being far from her this long.

"Thank you, Jensen. I could give you a hug right now. I won't know what to do without you. Alright, I'll call. Thanks, bye."

Dumiin ang pag pikit ko when I heard her said that guy's name.

Fuck. Am i gone too long? Is she having an affair with him? Damn. I wanted to get up and make her remember that she's mine and she will always be mine and mine alone!

I slowly gathered my fingers and slowly clenched my fist. Nakakainis isipin na pagmulat ko, boses nga ni Elise ang pinaka una ko'ng narinig pero kausap nya naman si Jensen.

The truth is.. I was so damn jealous of the guy. Hindi ko alam kung kailan iyon nagsimula but all I know is I wanted to take his place whenever magkasama sila ni Elise. Pakiramdam ko, inagaw nya sa akin si Elise. When all the while, I was the heartless bastard na inuna ang ibang babae at sinaktan si Elise.

The guilt I felt after Elise told me everything at the yacth opened old issues burried deep inside me. I lusted over Elise since we were in High School. Kapag inaakbayan ko sya, hinahawakan, kapag napapayakap sya sa akin minsan, may malisya lahat sa akin iyon. I would dream of her doing sinful things with me.

But that was it. I treat Elise with care. Ayoko na may mananakit sa kanya. Gusto ko, ako lang kasama nya. I convinced myself na hanggang pagnanasa lang ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya and I never acted upon it. I respect her too much. The love I feel for her at those times is inexplainable.

Akala ko, platonic lang talaga.

And she seemed to be convinced about it too.

I started having flings when I was in my junior year in High School. It never lasted. Nainis lang ako because they kept on whining about Elise always hanging around with me. I would drop them like a hot potato in a heartbeat because well, I'd rather like it if Elise would whine on me about them hanging around me na parang linta.

I started enjoying her bitchy remarks on my current flings bago kami maka graduate ng High School. If they are not ugly or annoying for her, they must be getting on her nerves, so I would drop them and never look at them again when Elise would start to whine.