Lifetime (JhoBea)

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JHO'S POV

Months had passed simula mung nalaman ko na umalis na pala si bea ng bansa. Ang hirap kasi di man lang ako nakapagpaalam. Inreally hate being left behind lalo na it's bea. Okay naman kami nung nagchampion sila pero days after non nalaman ko na lang kela ate ella na umalis na pala siya

Napagisipan kong mabuti na siguro dapat kong ilaro yung 5th playing year ko. It's not too late pa naman and kinausap din ako ng coaching staff na ilaro ko pa ang last playing year ko

Start na ng season at nandito kami ngayon sa dug out namin kasi may laro kami against UST. It's been a while at mabuti na lang ay kaclose ko na din agad ang mga bago sa team dati pa kasi diba nakasama ko pa sila sa isang trip namin nung andito pa si bea

"Mammeh Jho" tawag sakin ni deanna habang nakatulala

"Yes baby deans?"

"I miss daddeh bei" and here we go again. Bea again. Ewan ko ba pag naririnig ko ang pangalan niya parang may ewan sa sistema ko

"I miss her too deans" ayoko mawala sa focus ng game ko kaya tumayo na agad ako. ewan mas pinipili ko na lang iwasan yung topic na about kay bea everytime

"Do you love her? Ow i mean did you love her?" Napahinto naman ako sa kinakatayuan ko sa tanong niya

"Deanna not now we still have a game. Mapapagusapan naman natin yan mamaya. We need to focus sa game" aalis na sana ako pero hinawakan niya ako sa balikat ko

"Please know that wherever she'll go. It's always you. At mammeh sana alam mo how daddeh bei loves you" sabi niya at may inabot na box na may sobre. Hindi ko muna pinansin iyon at pinasok ito sa bag

Maybe later ko na lang tignan basta ang gusto ko ay magfocus muna sa laro

Natapos ang laro. Na straight sets namin sila. Well di naman nawala sa isip ko ang mga sinabi ni deanna kanina pero i managed to sary in focus syempre comeback year ko to kaya dapat ipakita sa lahat na kahit di ko nilaro ang last year ko nung last season ay andito pa din ako to defend the reign of what bea had left

Nang makasakay na kami sa bus ay tumabi sa akin si deanna. Tahimik lang kami nung una nang bigla siyang nagsalita

"Ate bei loves you so much" nagulat naman ako at tinignan ko na lang siya

"She'll do everything just to make you happy. Even though that happiness doesn't include her anymore" ayokong magsalita at parang gusto ko na lang makinig sakaniya

"Pero bakit umalis siya? Bakit iniwan niya ko? Ulit" di ko maiwasan itanong kasi totoo naman diba? Mahal niya ako pero iniwan niya nanaman ako

"Maybe she walked away cause you were too busy finding the wrong in her, while she was too busy finding the reason to stay with you" at tuluyan nanaman akong umiyak

"Mammeh Jho maybe you didn't gave her reasons to stay with you" oo nga. Alam ko naman na ako yung mali eh

"Deans. Mahal ko rin naman siya eh pero...." di ko natuloy dahil nagsalita agad siya

"Mahal mo? Pero may "pero"?" Sarcastic na tanong ni deans

"Hindi mo maiintindihan deans kahit I explain ko pa"

"Oo. Siguro nga hindi ko maiintindihan pero sana ate Jho sakaniya mo inexplain kasi kilala mo naman si ate bea" umiling lang ako at nanahimik na lang kami buong byahe

Umuwi na kami sa Dorm pagtapos at eto ako naligo na dahil gusto ko na magpahinga. It's a very tiring day. At nung ilalabas ko na ang gamit ko sa gym bag ay nakita ko ang box na binigay ni deanna na may kasamang sobre. Una kong binuksan ang sobre at nakita ko pang may note na nakalagay na "mi amore" at alam kong kay bea nga to galing dahil sa penmanship niya

Jhowjhow,

Hi!!! I know mababasa mo to pag wala na ako. I mean i'm not here in the philippines anymore. Syempre iniwan ko to kay deanna the day before i go to states. Sabi ko sakaniya that she'll give this to you if she feels that it's the right time. Hindi ko alam kung pano niya nasabi na right time na to kaya hawak mo na pero one thing is for sure that ramdam niya na kailangan mo na mabasa to.

Jho, I never knew i would met someone like you that will always stay by my side. Through ups and downs you've stayed. We've been through a lot. To all hard times, To all the pain we've been through. We're always here for each other. For all our tiring day, all our hardship in and out of the court we always end up hanging out to ease up all our hardworks. To all the misunderstandings we had before we always have our way back to each other's side. But all of these had come to its end. And It hurts so much to remember how close we were back then. I want you back but i know now it's too late for that. And It's just sad because i miss you a lot. I hope one day we'll have our way back home again to each other's side like we did in the past. I hope one day you'll accept me again in your life. I loved you before more than friends. But i chose to stay as your friend. Even though it hurts knowing that i wanted more. But i always thank God because once in my life he gave me a chance to be with you and to make memories together that I could cherish forever. I'll always pray to God that he'll always guide you. And i'll never stop praying that one day we'll be able to give it a try again.

I love you. Always.

-BEAst

Hindi ko alam pero para akong sinasaksak paulit ulit. At alam kong kasalanan ko ang lahat kung bakit kami naging ganto. Kung bakit kailangan niya pa umalis. Mahal ko din si Bea pero wala eh. Kailangan kong gawin yung mga bagay na nagawa ko na. And if i could turn back time i would fix everything just to give us a chance. Chance that never ends. Ang daming pumapasok sa isip ko at isa lang ang sinisigurado ko. At yung ang mahal ko talaga siya

Binuksan ko yung kahon at lalo akong umiyak dahil nakita ko yung necklace na may sunflower na pendant at pag binuksan mo ay makikita mo ang picture namin ni bea na magkatabi na kinuhaan noong nasa bacolod pa kami. Sinuot ko na ito at wala na kong balak alisin pa ito. I really missed my bea

Nahiga na ako sa kama at hinawakan na lang ang pendant ng necklace ko hanggang sa nakatulog na ako

"I never realized that she was all i need and all i want until she was gone damn!" Yan ang huling bulong ko sa sarili ko bago ako nakatulog

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So yon i'll give you an update hahaha 1st of july naman so lezgow hahaha mabait ako eh hahaha

Sorry sa mapanakit na update ko hahahahaha nung tinatype ko yung letter ni bea may tao akong naisip HAHAHAHA well skl kasi basta hahahahahaha

So yon i hope nagustuhan niyo. Leave a comment guys and keep on voting

7/1/20