and limping up the steps i added to my list of bad ideas:
drinking before early doctor appointments.
i don't really think you understand this.
i suppose i shouldn't want you to, but i do.
so i lied when i said i think about you
so i lied when i said i don't. so it's grey like a winter morning so it's cold.
i would like it if you could do what i want from you without me having to tell you.
i would love it if you could stop my heart.
for a little.
and bring it back again, i will love you
if you can fill my empty in
like filling a dent with concrete.
i am the dent. but you are not solid.
chimera in a man's clothes. i will love you even if you don't fix me.
i will love you but only if you don't apologise for my destruction.
now, darling, let us think,
a bargain at the crossroads, it's midnight and i've made one blood oath too many now, i always knew i'd find you here, so let's strike a bargain now.
what will it take for you to love me?
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KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
cough on coffee leftovers
Puisiwhat the gas pipe gave was everything it had left after the car stopped running. mostly black smoke. some gasoline tears to evaporate from the ground. a faint smell of regret.