Ignite the Stars | Reader x Ben Solo / Kylo Ren

Ch. 8 | Borderline

"And I know that you know it's not easy
Fighting battles that live in your mind
But you're close to the edge I can feel it
Every time that we say goodnight
You hide your feelings so I won't cry
But I'll keep waiting at the borderline
And when you're ready to change your mind
Then I'll be waiting at the borderline
You live your life like a firework
You soar right til you're fit to burst
And here I am standing on the ground
My hands held high
I won't let you down
In my head
In your head
It's a little bit mixed up
In my head its a little bit quiet
Sometimes it a little bit harder to fight"

Florrie - Borderline

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It's going to take two days to get to Ahch-To from the Resistance base, which is fine. You can catch up on sleep, spend more time with Chewie and Han, and finally crack open that book Maz left you. You're actually looking forward to it. That's what you're hoping you'd be able to do during the two day trip. Those plans are quickly thrown out the window when you sense the Force connecting you to Ben.

The tingling starts while you're sitting at the Dejarik table, reading the book Maz left you. You stand up quickly, grab the book, and make your way to your quarters in the Falcon. Nothing in the room has been changed since meeting Han and Chewie. Han told you to make it your own, assuming you'd be staying with them a while. But you are comfortable with it the way it is. The room is welcoming. It feels like home.

Sitting cross legged on your bed, you open the book to the page you were on and start reading again. Ben appears the moment your eyes locate the spot you had left off on. It looks like he's in the middle of training. His usual tight black pants and boots are gone and instead he's wearing a black muscle shirt with sweats. He's covered in sweat and breathing heavily. His arm is raised as if he was planning on striking down someone with the ignited crossguard lightsaber he has in his right hand, but freezes when he realizes you're watching him.

"That's enough for today," Ben says tersely. His hand shoots out to his right and his fingers curl a bit. You don't need to see the other person to know he's using the Force on someone. "I said that's enough for today," he says through gritted teeth. His hand jerks forward before he lowers it. Whenever the other person leaves, he slowly turns around to face you.

His eyes widen and he starts to look around the room. "You're in my room," he tilts his head slightly.

"This is your room? Aw shit. You can see my surroundings now? Fucking perfect," you sigh. He slowly walks around the room to see what has changed since the last time he was in the Falcon. It had been a decade since he stepped foot in the freighter. He should be more focused on the fact that he can now see your surroundings but instead he's focused on the fact that he is in his room, with you.

He chuckles quietly. "Han didn't tell you? Interesting."

"No. Your father didn't tell me it was your room but it doesn't surprise me that he would put me in here."

"Why is that?" He picks up a small spherical piece of metal that was resting on top of a small set of draws, and rolls it in his hand as he asks.

"Because your family, Chewie included, seem to think you have feelings for me. Whether you realize it or not."

His hand stops moving and he closes his fingers around the small sphere while staring out the small window in the room.

"I don't know where they got that idea but they're running with it so like I said, I'm not surprised."