Beyond The Past (My Toxic Relationship)

The Worst Year Ever

The worst year ever starts off shortly after we had moved to the new apartment. Three things I should mention. One, Lex had just started a new job in Conroe. This is important so remember this. Two, once I start getting to the heavy stuff I will be adding quotes that resonated deeply with me in that point of time to give you a better understanding as to how I was feeling at the time. Lastly, the beginning of this chapter starts off with triggers of rape and will pop up at some point later on as well.

I want to say that maybe a month after moving in Donnie messaged me asking me if I wanted to hang out. We were both off that day and I didn't think anything of it so I told him sure. I didn't tell Lex what I was doing so instead I told him that I was gonna hang out with my freshman roommate because I hadn't seen her in a while and of course he believed it.

In no way am I condoning the lie. I know it was wrong and I should've just told him the truth but I'm being entirely honest I didn't think anything of the situation and thought we really were just gonna hang.

I did tell one friend. Let's call her GiGi. Gigi knew about Donnie because I had told her during one of our hangouts after the incident where Lex tried to drive off drunk. So she knew. She also knew Donnie from high school and she told me to be careful because she didn't trust him.

I agreed.

We came up with a code word in case something happened and I needed to get out of there fast. I shared my location with her and we also came up with a Plan B in case Plan A with the code word didn't work.

I'm not saying I knew something bad was going to happen but unfortunately in the world we live in you can't ever be too sure. I'd rather always be safe than sorry and I'm so glad I was.

Plan A was to text the word 'Twilight'. Plan B was to have her call me and ask if I was still going to help out with her project.

Donnie picked me up from my apartment and we went over to his.

We got inside and he offered me a drink.

I went with a Dr. Pepper.

We went to his room and were just talking, chilling. Nothing was out of the ordinary. I didn't feel afraid or worried but I was still texting Gigi as a safety precaution. Donnie asked who I kept texting and I told him that a friend of mine needed help with a project and that we were sorting out details.

I was about to take a sip of my drink when he grabbed the can and put it on his desk.

Before I knew it he was on top of me.

My hands were pinned on top of my head and he was kissing all down my neck.

I tried to move.

I tried to escape.

I told him to stop.

He never did.

He let my hands go and let them roam my body.

I managed to get my phone and quickly text Gigi 'TWILIGHT'.

Not regular text but in caps.

No response.

I began to feel fear.

I kept telling him to stop.

I kept telling him I couldn't and didn't want to do this.

I told him I had a boyfriend.

A few seconds later my phone starts vibrating.

He grunts, declines the call and puts my phone in his pocket.