Bethany~
I wake up in the middle of the night.
It wasn't because of a nightmare, or anything. I actually don't know why that happened.
When my eyes opened, I was warm. And not because of the stupid onesie, but because someone had an arm wrapped around my shoulders, welcoming my head to lay against their well-built chest.
That someone just had to be Derek.
I soundlessly get up from his arms, despite that part of my head protesting.
I tiptoe around the people laying on the floor, cringing whenever I get too close to their bodies.
I make my way into the kitchen, and sit down on the chair near the counter.
There's only one thought on my head as I think to myself.
Why?
Why am I reacting like this around Derek?
Why is it that I'm like a magnet to him? I always seem to gravitate towards him.
This has never happened to me before. When it comes to guys, I never react like this.
Four days ago, I only blushed when I was embarrassed, a bit drunk, or laughed too hard. Now, I blush whenever he looks at me.
Whenever he touches me, I immediately feel too hot.
Whenever he smiles at me, my legs turn into jell-o.
It bothers me how affected I am by him.
It bothers me because I know for a fact that he doesn't feel the same way. Even though I've never known how a guy reacts around a girl he likes, I know for a fact that he doesn't like me in the way that I like him.
He's a man. He's had many relationships. He has been paired with plenty of beautiful women- not girls like me. What makes me so different, besides the fact that I'm younger?
It scares me.
What if when I involuntarily flirt with him, he feels disgusted? He's playful because that's just his personality, so he probably thinks that I'm joking around, too.
I quietly grab myself a cup of water.
I've had relationships before, too. Only two, but they were what I considered to be serious.
I had sex for the first time with my first boyfriend. I thought we were in love.
We split after a year, knowing that we were drifting apart.
My second relationship ended the same way. I was getting bored, as bad as that sounds.
Looking back now, I was never as happy as I am now.
That's what scares me.
After four days, I already feel more alive with Derek than I have ever felt with any of my past relationships.
Maybe it's the thought of being close to an older man?
No, it's not. I know it's not.
It's just him. It's just Derek.
This crush of mine has to end, because I know that that's all it ever will be- a crush.
I'm not going to make any promises to myself of keeping my distance from him. I know that it will be impossible. I just don't know what to do.
I sigh heavily and drink the rest of my water.
I have to be around Derek for three months, so I might as well enjoy it.
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She Is Love (Motough)
FanfictionBethany Mota, 19. The 'Star'. Young, driven, and successful (despite her doubt). Derek Hough, 29. The 'Dancer'. Older, equally as driven, and equally as successful (he has no doubt). What happens when these two are paired in 'Dancing With the S...