Sometimes I just get random moments of depression. The rest of the time I tend to feel numb. After everything I've gone through this past year to better myself I thought things would feel different. I still feel lost and at times unwanted. I feel like I'm sometimes the last choice or not even one at all. I'm afraid to let people in because more than likely they will just let me down or use me. Why do I feel like this?
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