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Ok so I'm just chilling  on my phone and then my friend let call her (drama mama) starts going of on how she depressed  and stuff and then i  Realize something some of the things, she was saying she was depressed about were things I had told her I was depressed about or things that had happened to me and, I was like well you are going through purities or maybe it's just that and then she just went off on me and ,I'm texting my mom like do I help her do I know and she said just be nice to her and I'm like but she's being rude to me when I was trying to be nice to her.
So I need ya'll options  on this what the hell do I do

Here some pick of what she said i will paste in one here and put the pictures  in the next one

Her*****
Maddie have you every felt so depressed That you can't go on anymore, that every time you wake up Your disappointed because you were having a much better time asleep then awake!!!

Have you ever felt so alone that nobody loves you anymore and that it would be better if you just disappeared, that whenever you walk into school you feel like everyone is judging every little thing about you!!

Have you every cried in the dark but as soon as someone walks over to you and says hi and by instinct you put on a fake smile and wipe away the tears so nobody could see your pain!?

When Mrs. Goetzke pulls you out of class and ask you "are you ok, Is someone bullying you?" All you can spit out is "no I'm perfectly fine nobody is bullying me.😁" but deep down the scars and words are digging deeper and deeper into your head telling you everything that people make fun of you for is all true and that you are the ugliest person alive😞

Have you every told everyone around you that your "perfectly fine" but really your hoping you die so the pain can finally go away!!

Have you ever just stayed up all night crying and crying, or stayed up all night thinking about how to go.....

Have you every told people to be happy there alive and to not hurt themselves.......but in reality your wishing you were dead and wanting to be gone..

Have you ever felt like all your friends are just waiting for you to die

Have you every been called a
Hoe
B**ch
Thot
An A**hole
A brat
A toxic A**
An ugly b**ch
A human lard

Or told
"Your not even cute"
"Go die"
"Go kill yourself"
"If you mess with them I lll mess you up"
"You were a mistake"
"I wish I never met you"

Have you just wanted to take a shower every day bc that's the only place nobody can hear you cry

Have you ever looked at someone and just say " your so pretty" but they reply " aww you thanks, you ok I guess, maybe you could just lose about 10 pounds"

ok so Maddie, um first off...you of ALL people should know I at least have something wrong with me. So please don't tell me, " I agree with your mom it's probably just puberty" I am very aware of puberty, but this is completely different then puberty. Would puberty make me wanna..........
No I don't think it would

And please note I will use the number 1 for name instead

I feel like I'm not enough, for anyone. I feel numb, I'm scared to tell people anything, I feel nothings inside me. I hate this!!! I'm going to spill everything! I have no motivation anymore!! When I was little I used to be so happy about my birthday, but now I hate it, The day before my birthday I didn't even want to have a birthday, i didn't want anything!!! I had little happiness!! When I told my mom I think I'm depressed she just said " I don't think you have depression, I think your just going thru puberty!!"   AND I AM NOT!!! IF I WAS GOING THRU PUBERTY DONT YOU THINK ID KNOW!!!

I hate myself!! I'm so ugly and fat!!! When I look in the mirror all I see if my flaws!!! When Cayden makes fun of me and says I have a "HUGE forehead" I used to not believe him, but now I do!! I am EXTREMELY ugly!!  And when RyRy called me an "A**hole" IT HURT!! IT ACTUALLY HURT!!! They don't realize that when they do that stuff they ACTUALLY HURT ME
I feel like I can't except myself!! I feel like I need to change myself for people to like me!!
I love my family!!! I do!! But when my mom says to me " Why are you so rude to everyone!! Maybe if you were nicer to people, they'd like you more" AND THOES ARE HER EXACT WORDS!! I remember her saying that to me!! Me my mom and chip we're outside picking up poop  and she said that to me!! And my brothers call me a "brat" all the TIME!!!
I love my family don't get me wrong but when they say that it HURTS!!!

And in group chats I feel like nobody wants to even talk to me and that I annoy everyone!!!
My dad told me " if I ever cut myself I'd go to counseling" I understand that... but you make it seem like you won't help me... like tell me " We're going to get thru this together!!" BC I NEED THAT!!!
All my friends know what I've gone thru, bc I tell them.
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11
111
1
11
1111
1
1
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They all know what I've gone thru bc there the ones I told. When I.....They helped me!! They were with me, they helped me!!!
The reason I did what I did....... was bc I am hurting so MUCH!!! I hate myself!!

That what she sent  and said here what I and a few friends  said

If nobody cared you wouldn't  have friends  and don't  say oh they would be happier  now it make them feel horrible  so stop saying  stuff like that the reason a lot of people  stay depressed  is because  they say that stuff  about them self and listen  to sad stuff you are what you eat you are what you think you are what you feelAnd izzy if you really think you have depression  then you should  tell both of you parents  and if they  don't believe  then call someone like there are line for depressed  people  , izzy you need to think about thie tho why would you have depression  cause if you say something  like family  or parents  the CPS will get involved No! Izzy your not worthless. You are enough in fact your more than enough for all of us your perfect in every way and you need to believe it...the way you feel,the things you say to yourself,the things you believe that aren't true that's discouragement take all of that and throw it away because they are LIES you don't need to believe the things that your mind randomly puts in your head the ONLY things you should be believing is
1.you are beautiful
2.never doubt yourself when it says your perfect in every way
3. Your amazing
4.you have friends right here who will love and support you
5.god put you here for a reason everything that has happened was for a reason the good and bad you can't change it cause it's apart of gods plan
6.GIRL WE FINNA THROW HANDS! IF YOU THINK IM GONNA LET YOU DISCOURAGE YOURSELF AND KICK YOURSELF TO THE GROUND
7.you are way more than you think you are izzy no matter what you feel no matter what people tell you. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and you NEED To believe it
Sorry that took so long 😂

Ok in part to i will but photos please note I asked everyone what they want there name to be so note in not being mean callinf her drama mama but she do have a lot of drama in her life

PLEASE  NOTE THIS IS SERIOUS  IF YOU NEED HELP DONT  BE   AFRAID  TO ASK FOR IT HERE OR CALL SOMEONE  ONE PLEASE NEVER HURT YOURSELF  IT ONLY HURT OTHERS  AROUND YOU AND LEAVES YOU WITH THOSE PLEASE NEVER SO WHAT I OR HER DID YES WE DID  CUT BUT WE ALSO GOT HELP AND EVERY DAY A WAKE UP AND SE THEM IT IS A REMINDER  THAT I AM STILL HUMAN AND THAT EVERYONE HURT EVERYONE SOSE ANX  ok so for yelling and  that i shouldn't  hide my past of pain same qith my friends and family  and please  note that if you need anyone to talk to im here for you 😁.