Falling for a Constello

Synopsis

SYNOPSIS

Where we met was quiet interesting. I was also surprised by it.

He's a father, a founder. A man who crafted a lot of exquisite masterpieces.

I got a crush on him that turns into like; until one day, I woke up— I'm under his spell. I was deeply in love with the boy I've met online.

Patuloy akong umaasa na balang araw ay magugustuhan niya rin ako at habang tumatagal ay mas nanganganib ang puso ko. Ayokong pag-aralang mahalin siya dahil ayoko rin namang matutunan. Pero naranasan niyo na bang makaramdam ng isang emosyong hindi niyo mapigilan dahil nagkusa?

It was unexpected. I got a change of heart.

One day I woke up in the bed— realizing what my heart really aches for; to stay.

One day I sober, I really want him, even if we're miles away.

One day I figured out that I can no longer let him go.

I cannot cut myself from the string anymore.

I'm trapped in this world— in his world.

I'm captivated— captive in his arms.

Tuluyan na nga akong nakulong sa pagmamahal na mayroon ako.

But I know deep inside, he doesn't mean what he does.

He doesn't like me and he will never do.

He just don't want to loose a heaven sent best friend.

But he changes my thoughts and I chose to believe.

How I wish I didn't so I will be over all that butterflies.

I became his world— that's what he said.

Having him was the most beautiful part of my life. It's like a color that splashes to my world; used to be in black in white.

It brings something spectacular to an empty canvas.

He painted my world with colors so that I won't feel blue.

So I won't feel the real void inside of me that remains unfulfilled.

I have the man I longed for. The man I cried over for years.

What can I even wish for?

But..

Loving him that time is complicated.

Loving him in that kind of world is excruciating.

Loving him in the wrong time drowned me into sadness.

I couldn't get myself up anymore. There was no trace of his warm palm that time. The only hand I'd ever ask for help.

Time passes strangely in lurches.

Everything had change in a glimpse of an eye.

Time goes by unevenly no matter how I beg it to stop.

It's just— it won't.

There I proved to myself,

Masaya sa una. . .

Ngunit. .

Umalis siya't iniwan ako.

Nawala siya ng parang isang bula.

At sa muli niyang pagbabalik, nagbago na ang lahat.

He had his dream, and I'm no longer in the picture.

May mga bagay at tao talaga na sadyang gustong-gusto nating makuha ngunit kailanman ay hindi mapapasa kamay natin.

May mga pangyayaring hindi natin inaasahang wawasak sa atin ng buo.

May mga taong darating sa buhay natin para magsilbing aral at may mga taong darating sa napakagandang panahon ngunit sa huli pala'y aalis naman.

It's really hard and tearful when I found myself Falling for a Constello.

But I didn't resist— I let myself fly to a freefall.

Hoping I can unbound if ever I wanted too.

Starting the day we met, he became the reason of my smile that crucially turned into my severe pain. He started to became much more sweeter— and I wish, he didn't.

So. . .

I shouldn't have fallen.

I should have stopped myself from falling.

I should have saved my heart from breaking when I still have the chance.

Now. .

I lose control. . .