That Boy Name Luke Matthew,

Kabanata 18

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Kabanata 18
I'm sorry,

"Uy ano ba? Sabi ko nga sorry na! Malay ko bang dadamdamin mo iyon!" Paliwanag ko at peke pang natawa habang kinukulbit siya kasabay ng habol ko sa paglalakad niya.

Kita ko namang napigilan ang mga taong nadadaanan namin, agaw pansin na ata kami.

"I was there for you, and yet you leave me with someone else I don't even knew." Malamig na wika niya sakin his cold eyes makes me want to bury myself, awtomatiko akong bumitaw sa hawak ko sa bag niya, natigilan naman ako, napaawang ang labi ko sa narinig at napakurap, di ko naman inaaasahang ganito yung magiging kalabasan.

Hinayaan ko na lang ang sarili kong titigan ang kanyang likod habang naglalakad palayo sa akin di niya man lang ako nilingon,I can't help but to bit my lower lip at saka nagbaba ng tingin, natulala ako habang pinaglalaruan ang mga daliri ko .

Di ko naman aakalain na seryoso siyang maiinis sa akin.

Ever since me and Gwen became friends , there's no day she'll not sit beside me maski si Alanis at McDanielle nagulat na biglaang may bago akong kaibigan, may isang araw na habang nag-rereview ako sa library naupo sa harap ko si Gwen kasama yung kaibigan niyang taga ibang room, Gwen introduced her to me and I thought after that I can focus back on studying but her friend name Desiree asked me about what's the score between me and Luke Matthew.

Lagi na lang ba? Dapat ba akong magpost ng status sa fb o magtweet sa twitter na kaibigan ko lang iyon para di na ako tanungin nila?

Magdala kaya ako ng karatula?

I'm convinced to consider it.

I simply told her we're friends and nothing more gulat ako nang tumili siya at halos magtalon-talon sa harap ko matapos ay kinulit niya ako kung pwede ko ba siyang ipakilala kay Luke Matthew because she likes him ever since the first day here at school just that she thought we're having a thing mabenta nga talaga ang isang iyon biruin mo dadaan daan lang sa hallway may napalingon na add the fact that he radiates this intimidating look na kung di kami magkakilala ay di ko siya kikibuin dahil nakakahiya at pakiramdam ko na ang liit at kulang ko para itabi sa kaniya, I can say Desiree is a bubbly type madaling magustuhan yung tipo niya, Gwen whispered that I should just ignore her favors Desiree is really like that, annoying.

I thought I can call it a day but she continue nagging me in next consecutive days.

Tiring.

Dinadalhan niya ako ng pagkain na ang silbi ay parang suhol na tinatanggihan ko naman.

Kaya tuloy kapag nakakasabay ko si Luke sinasabi kong wag niya na ako ihatid sa room o kung pupunta man siya ay ako na lang hahanap at lalapit sa kanya.

I don't know.

I'm torned if I'm distancing Luke so that Desiree won't bother him or I'm distancing Luke so that he won't know anything about her...so that they won't be close.

So that there's no chance that they'll vibe and there's no chance of them being together.

I hate to admit this, but I feel scared and threatened about her which is illegal for me to feel.

Why feel scared of losing someone, when that someone isn't yours from the very beginning.

Stupid shit.

Part of me hate that idea and the other part of me hate the thought that I feel so affected with this matter which I shouldn't , I'm his friend just like I said and friends must supports each other right?

The hell! I'm acting sick, this is annoying, so what kung may tsansang magkagustuhan sila? I'm just his self proclaimed friend.

Lately I'm acting weird makita ko pa lang anino ni Desiree magtatago ako o diretsong uwi basta lang wag siya makausap.